June 14, 2019

 

Dear Diary,

Today was a bad day. I wanted to write yesterday, when it was a great day. I wish i had. 

Anyway. 

In morning i sat for meditation but i could not concentrate, i just got up in between.Then in office, it started with shyam coming over and telling me all devices froze again. And then kishore calling me into his office and telling the device in his room isnt responding, the power supply module went bad in that again. These are all known issues and i tried to look for it again as i have done it numerous times, thinking that this time maybe i'll find the exact reason. And i dint again...

Then shanu messaged me, asking if i know the address. And i don't know what to say. Does she knows or she doesn't. I guess she doesn't. 

Then in day i did a big mistake. Dropped the database again. 

I wasn't feeling like working today, i should have left the office already. Sitting there could have resulted into a bigger mistake. 

I even behaved rudely with people again today. Meera if you are reading this. I am sorry. 

I think its even visible on my face, when i am off the mood, its funny, everyone talks slowly to me, maybe thinking that i may just shout. 


You know, past few days have been very good, after returning from home, i was feeling so much more confident and positive about everything. 

I called owner aunty and said i'll vacate the house, by end of this month, and i had not look for any flat yet. But i dint feel overwhelmed with it, i just felt positive, i knew i'll find a home in 20 days. It dint get me anxious at all. And i got it. Yesterday i talked to Kishore, asked if i can live in his building. He gave me 502. Easy as a pie.


But today something just dint feel right. I don't know what it is. I am not as happy as i was yesterday. I even slept properly last night. 


But i am not sad. Just feeling a little low, but i also have a little anger in me today, that says, tomorrow is coming, and i'll beat it. I'll make tomorrow a better day. More productive one. I'll take the revenge for this one. 


I think that is it. 

One more thing, I got the oven. Mom finally agreed. Haven't baked much yet. Just tried some roasted potatoes yesterday. Me and sweety gave it the name "ChhatiKutto" 😂.

Ok Goodnight. ❤️❤️❤️





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