Dear Diary,
Feeling very happy today.. Finished all the things I set out to do today. Which is a first. Considering that I’ve been around for a while, it makes me feel proud that, for once, I ticked off everything on my to-do list…
Lately, I’ve been learning some stuff from the internet as a part of my self-improvement new year resolution. Things are going good so far. My mom and a few friends review my work. They all say it looks good, so…it cant be that bad.
The good thing about studying from the net is that it’s very cheap compared to a real college-y education, the bad thing is, if you get stuck on something,it’s difficult to get the right help. I’m scared that it might happen to me.
And then the next big thing is… siri left for bangalore. She finally got her dream job. I’m sad for myself, but beyond happy for her. She deserves it.
We got along like great buddies even though she’s 6 years older than me. She never treated me like a little one. We learned a lot of things from each other.
I’m so in awe of her. She left the country on her own at 22, got a scholarship to finish her entire post-grad study,…and supported herself on her own, been to so many places. I was just amazed by all the stories she had to tell. Someday I hope I can fulfil my dream like her.
I remember very vividly after I introduced her to the folks at the women in product event when we were coming back, she told me,..’meru, you are gonna make it…i know you will’. I wanted to tear up then, but I waited till I got home.
I still have no idea what I want to do with life, so I try out everything I can, hoping that I’d figure out somewhere along the way. I confuse a lot of people by doing this, my parents are the most worried,…but Siri was the first person to tell me that I’d make it. It means a lot to me, coming from someone who’s has seen so much more of the world out there.
Of course, we were not always on the same page with everything. I never could understand her urgency to get married. Maybe it’s a cultural thing.
I was raised in a different society. Even my grandma married at 30 and that was more than 50 years ago. So I don't get it.
I think life has been unkind to her. Her father doesn't talk to her because she is independent and self-reliant. I guess it hurts his ego. Her brother doesn’t talk to her because she managed to get a job as good as his which he never imagined. Then she lost her job for no fault of hers….
In spite of all this, she’s not mad at life,..which is what’s surprising to me. She’s content with whatever life’s offered her. I think that’s something I should learn from her. If it were me, I’d go on a non-stop rant about how life cheated on me.
Anyway, she’s off to a fresh start now. I hope she gets lucky on her groom hunting journey real soon.
Well,…as for me, I now have a place to stay over next time I visit Bangalore...
Peace!
Bye diary. . .