April 1, 2019

April 01, 2019

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Dear Diary, its been a while since ive wrote here.. But I tried opening myself up more the past couple of days.. I felt better.. Until now. Someone told be to confront my depression and tell people about it.. But its just so hard.. I dont want to tell my brothers because they dont actually give a shit about me they both hate me and make it 100% clear they do because They say it. I'm not telling my dad because he is lart of thereason I'm so depressed same with my brothers. Cant go to any of my councillors because who the he'll knows what the fuck there gonna do when I tell them I cut myself. Cant go to any of my friends because they wont understand or Their going through their own shit at the moment. I have nobody to turn to. On another note.. My dad threw me across a room today.. And no it wasn't fun. And in my brothers response to that "you're so dramatic!" Like WHAT THE FUCK!? I'm so sad. At this point I just want to die.. I'm so close to ending it all. Bit there's something telling me I shouldn't.

Nobody special✓

Apr 1, 2019 · 35 views

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meruApr 2, 2019

There's always a better world out there. I think you should do whatever it takes to get yourself there. Be laser focused. Dont let anything distract you. And work towards your goal of getting to a better place. You know your life better than anyone else. So make a plan and stick to it... Be it education or better job or whatever it may be. Cheers and goodluck :)

meruApr 2, 2019

I always think about this...it is so easy to let go. Our world is full of things to help us do that. Knives, blades,loose threads,matchsticks,gas,...so on. If one wants to,its easy to leave this place. But we dont. Most people dont. They hang on. Maybe its an evolutionary thing,to be scared of death. But i think resilience also plays a key role. We humans are born with that beautiful quality. And i think we should try to uphold that trait of ours as long as we can.