Hey diary,
Do you know what is the most terrible thing that happened to me in this november 2018?well......I think I like a boy or my be in love with him from last month from the same university in the same batch and can you believe it is my first time that I felt something for a boy and don't get surprised to hear that I'm about to graduate that means I'm in the last year of my undergrad
I am a person who was never interested in these types of stuffs and was never bothered and have a self profound pride that I never had crush on any boy he just broke my that pride , it happened ,suddenly it happened while in that event where both we met for the first time doing volunteering
and I think about him every day but the funny part is we don't talk though he is in my friendlist but he never talks to me and I also know he has crush on a junior gal .Uff it is just too pathetic that I even can't concentrate on my studies and so the result of my this semester is terrible and at the same time horrible ..It makes me feel so depressed that he would never like me let alone love but sometimes I feel like it's one of the most beautiful feelings when I think about him and make many stories of ours in my mind
I just wannted to share it since it feels so suffocated that I like him but i can't tell him this and even can't talk to him