Dear Diary,
Strange is the life... Yesterday evening once again I was feeling lost... Thinking about my dreams.... Realizing how i am. Never going to see my dreams coming true... Realizing how i am actually getting old every day and i dont see any road in front of me which leads me to South America, or realizing that maybe I'll never be able to build that beautiful caffe in a hillstation we dreamt of... Thinking how i might just end up all alone....
But today its all different... Today i see the beauty in this world... Today i remember ted mosby when he says 'Not every evening has to be the perfect evening...'. Learning lyrics of the songs in my phone.. Singing the song with my lips but no noise with my headphones on... Songs like "Thephotograph". Never realised how beautiful this song is, every word of it...Stand By Me... I just love music... View outside from the window of my bus is beautiful, yellow lights on the poles, it's raining outside.. The long raindrops, glowing with the light.. Its like thin long sparkles...I like roads, it fill some sense of movement in ma life..
The situation hasn't changed since yesterday, it's still the same, I still don't know where my life is going... But i am Not sad about it... I know I'll find it.. It happened once before with me... I am walking and suddenly I realize what if i am lost, what if I took a wrong turn long back, but I have come so far, can't go back now...Walking, then i see few meters ahead of me something, or. Someone standing and i just jump and cry... 'we are not lost, its the right way...', it's the right way, we are not lost...
Goodnight.... 😋😋😋