Many Things

Dear Diary, Its been long since i wrote to you. There are many things i wanted to tell you. But i was busy(U know the truth, i wasn't busy, i was just feeling lazy :P ). But dont be mad at me, I'll tell u everything, not today, but tommorow.. These days i am having bad dreams again. I remember when i was a kid i used to have those dreams which made me cry in bed. They were long gone. But these days i am again having some horrible dreams. Somtimes few terrorists are making some chemical poision in my balcony to kill the entire city, sometimes someone has taken away my family or sometimes someone is hurting her and i am so helpless, i cannot stop any of these from happening and thats the bad part which makes me realise that how we are living just with the mercy of God and there is so less for us to control. Today i had little arguments with damini. She thinks i was blaming her for stocks performance but u know i wasn't, right ? I was only giving her feedback as a friend. But i think she took it very seriously, she was expecting good few praise words when i actually gave her feedback partially my bad too, But seriously i think she behaves like a kid sometimes. =D anyway... Moving on.. It was really difficult to decide to be open about everything, but i think now i have decided that i want to share more of my life with everyone. Perhaps because i feel too alone sometimes and i just feel like there is no one to tell any of these stories to, and keeping it all inside is only making me more of a lost guy who is always thinking something... Anyway, I'll tell u the rest about what happened in past few days adn we'll catch up about everything... Shabba Khair for now.. :)