[ENTRY 86..✍️]

I was supposed to be going out with another guy today but my laziness easily subdued my desire to socialise. I don't know if I'll ever go and try to meet him some other time but we'll see.

Erwin and I didn't do anything on Valentine's, which was fine. I needed sex more than a Valentine and he already gave me that. Besides, it was his first day at his new job so I guess it was a legitimate excuse.

February 14 | Yesterday

Around Midnight

Me: "Babe."

Him: "Ahh, that sounds so good in the ears. Haha."

(It was the first time I called him "babe".)

Me: "Hahaha. How are you feeling?"

Him: "Feeling you."

Me: "What does that even mean. Idk how to interpret that."

Him: "Why? You want to read me? Haha."

Me: "I wanna know what's on your mind. Like Facebook. Hahaha."

Him: "Ooh. Feel like I wanna cuddle you. Haha."

Me: "Aww. Now ask me how I feel."

Him: "How do you feel?"

Me: "Horny."

Him: "Is it about me? 😂"

Me: "Hahahahaha bah, whatever. Let's sleep."

Him: "Hahaha. Let's."

Me: "Alright, then. Goodnight?"

Him: "Goodnight. Though I still can't sleep yet."

Me: "Me, too 😂"

Him: "What are you thinking?"

Me: "You. Me. Sex."

Him: "Hahahaha. Tss. If only I didn't have to work tomorrow…"

Me: "Oh, yes. It's Monday now... Gah. When the clock strikes the wee hours, really, my horniness just activates."

Him: "I see. At least now I know 😂 So I should really fuck you during the wee hours."

Me: "Hahahaha."

He seemed to be laughing more than usual in that conversation. And slightly engaging. Lmao. I still really have an issue with this, huh? But I'm beginning to get used to it. How a person is behind a screen doesn't completely capture what and who they are in real life.

Damn. I can't believe I'd be saying this but I somewhat miss him.

1984_Lunar_Eclipse's Dear Diary