Dear Diary,

Now I know how it feels to loose a friend 😢

My roommate and I were like '5&6" when we first arrived. We were inseparatable. She even said so herself.

We always went to lectures together and we read together. Now all of a sudden we are not so close anymore.

She spends most of her time with that girl that stays in a hostel on Campus.

She even reads overnight there. (In the girls hostel)

I admit it I'm jealous, I miss my friend. I'm not jealous like I want to hurt her new friend or I hate her. I'm just jealous as in... I'm hurt and I just wish things can go back to the way they were. (Maybe that isn't jealously I don't really know)

Anyway she just left now, she went to read overnight in her new friend's hostel. I could have actually followed her but it's against the rules to sleep in any hostel that isn't yours and I don't want to break the rules.

Sometimes when she goes to meet her new friend she actually invites me too but I always decline. It all just feels weird to me. It's like I'm disturbing or they have so many inside jokes that I know nothing about. I feel like they get along more.

I'm probably just overthinking all these.

It's just sad that she's the only friend I have here apart from my other roommates, and I don't have any classes with them. I only see them in the hostel.

Gosh was I always this shy, I wonder why I didn't make other friends.

I wonder how things will be for me next year. I should probably work on my social skills before next year (great another thing to worry about 😔)

I just don't understand why life takes so much work.

The most annoying thing is that I'm actually trying.

SIENNA's Dear Diary