Warning: some adult themes after some Pokemon chat.

Da and I spent almost all of Monday (28th) together mostly watching Steven Universe. I gave him the Eevee Pokemon card tin I bought for him. He gets so excited about Pokemon cards and I love it.

I've also bought a Gigantamax Eevee plushie, a Snorlax cosplaying as Eevee plushie, a surprised Pikachu pin, a Snorlax pin, a rare gold Eevee coin, and a Super Mario ghost ("Boo") plushie for him. I've received all but three of those already and I don't really have a plan as to when to give them to him. I suppose I'll wait til Christmas to give most of them at least. I might give him the pins beforehand.

Da is going to be mad (but not really) when he sees how easy it is for me to buy stuff for him but I'm not as easy to buy for. I don't have a specific favorite pokemon and for the most part I've told him to avoid buying me more plushies (I have no room for them). I have also told him not to buy me shirts because I wear like the same 5 shirts and not to buy me any blankets because I already have too many and I have limited storage capacity.

But honestly, I'm still so happy about the Magearna plushie he bought for me. I keep her on my bed at night and I take her with me to sit on my recliner when I'm in the living room. I adore her.

I wish I was easier to buy gifts for because I know how it feels to give gifts as a form of showing love, hence why I've already bought him so much. It has nothing to do with the price, rarity, etc. It's the thought. ❤️

Back to pokemon, since I've bought some Pokemon tins (Eevee for Da and a Magearna tin for myself), I've accumulated some Pokemon TCG Online code cards and decided to try playing it and that's what I've done the past few days. It's a learning process, for sure. I don't think I'll be able to make a good deck by myself for a while, but that's okay. Premade decks can still be fun.

Da found some code cards in his house, too, and gave them to me.

I really wish Da and I didn't have so many struggles. I can't go to his house since there are 6 cats (previously 7, but 1 cat that was mostly outside just kinda never came back) and I'd almost certainly start having a serious reaction. I could maybe go to his parents house with their 2 cats, but that isn't his home and it would probably be uncomfortable for everyone involved.

Da can't stay at my house overnight because my grandma would be uncomfortable and it's her house.

It looks like we are getting a hotel next week. We have needs that cannot be satisfied on the hard floor of my room with the light on and door open.

Speaking of needs, he bought me a dildo from Bad Dragon and it's going to come with a tube so it can fake the whole ejaculation thing. I'm pretty excited about it especially since Da and I are too nervous about having sex without a condom, even if we used a spermicide or something along with my birth control. I'd still much rather have his bare dick.

I've had one pregnancy scare before and, clearly, the tests were negative. I imagine if that were to happen with Da, he just might have a heart attack. We are not ready to be parents and I don't even want to tempt fate right now.

I just want to feel him so close to me.

Gia_143's Dear Diary