Dear Diary,

It was an okay day! Hubby is sick. Suddenly I feel that I have too many things to do. And I'm standing for longer than usual. It's exhausting. But if I show that I'm hurting because of the work load, it would make him more sick. So I gotta keep myself up and strong.

I have gained some pounds here and there. 🙁 I don't eat that much but I don't eat healthy either. I don't like vegetables. Fruits are okay but I fail to add them in my diet. Someone has to insist on having a fruit.

Being born in the south, I don't like rice. I'm weird. I love roti and any gravy and Chaat items. I should have born in the north. But I can't cook just for myself. Hubby needs rice for lunch. I'm too lazy to make two different menu for both of us. My brain would be roasted and my heart would faint with the stress.

Ugh, I'm so lazy. I wanna be non-lazy. But I don't know how. My willpower fades away so quickly I doubt if I have one in me. I do watch lots of YouTube videos and be motivated for 2-3 days. Then the fire goes through the window and I'm back to square one, idle, lazy self.

Ughhhh! I have to reduce few pounds. Only then my cycle and ovulation would be regular or at least frequent. The thing is, I don't eat that much. I have junk foods from time to time. Not like binge eating or stress eating kinda quantity.

My biggest problem is I have to do some physical activity to keep my weight in check. If not it gets piled up. 😣 I gotta keep moving regardless of the place. Right now I'm just too exhausted in this small apartment. I can go outside and walk by the sidewalk or do home workouts but my mind is not up for it yet. 😫

But I have kinda made my mind up to do some yoga and walk for few minutes. Gotta tone down before December. October is too close so it's December. That's final.

Kavalir's Dear Diary