I needed space, I needed love, I needed time

And I never understood how you could treat me so heartless

Until I realized that you just needed mine

That's what I mean by "loving you never helps"

'Cause I just can't decide between loving you or myself

I just pushed away 'cause I drew a line and you crossed it

Crossing out my exes and ex-ing out all my loses, I know

What it's like to lose somebody you love

And I know what it's like to lose yourself to the drugs

And I know what it's like to have to let go of someone

'Cause they hurt you so bad that you're not the person you was

They won't ever feel what I feel

In a world so fake I just need something that's real

I've been dying to live, the devil's shooting to kill

I just can't help but wonder if you think of me still

See, I've been losing my mind

I've been losing everybody I believed in

Anxiety is suffocating me, I'm barely breathing

I'm coping with the pain

Hoping that the rain just stops 'cause it reminds me of the day you said you leaving

We always seem to run from those that love us the most

And we never open up because we scared to get close

We running from the past and we numb ourselves hoping that it lasts

Cause you left me when I needed you most

{Well if this song don't just fit my whole damn life}

Np's Dear Diary