Dear No one,

Am I bad for wishing someone to be as miserable as me?

I ended a lot of relationship, it is my own fault I know, but I just wish they chase after me.

This someone I let go months ago, our memories started resurfacing again. I am now thinking of what if's. I wish I could have stayed and didn't let his hopes died. I think he's happy now, much more than he did when we were together.. I can't help feeling disappointed because I know in my heart that It should have been me. I should be the one that makes his day, and still broke his heart.

I am a selfish bitch, I know. I let people go but they are still chained on me. It hurts when they break lose of that chain. I pretend they are mine until they totally escape my grasp... Because that's when I realize how inconsequential I am. I am nothing. They don't remember my name. I am only a lost memory, a forgotten dream.

I don't want them to get over me. I hope to haunt them every time. It is very wrong of me but I can't help it.

My heart feels so blue, I wish you could go back to me. Please kiss me one last time. I just need one good movie kiss and I'll be alright.

Bird's Dear Diary