Dear Diary,

Hi, I have thought to give a try to everything, I mean I have thought to give try to new people. I want to start again. I don't know if I want to really get married at this time or in future or I don't want to get married, I don't know anything but I definitely know this that I want to get out of this environment and Idk if marriage would bring more mess or peace to my life. But I know that I want someone in life but yaa that someone should have guts to speak truth to me and to his family, I always prefer brutal truth over diplomatic lies.

I have made the profiles again on matrimony apps and received many requests again, I will not send any requests this time also but this time I will respond to people and let people know me.

I guess I have moved on or maybe atleast 95% I have been moved out of those things.

But this time I won't talk to only one person, I will give a try to 3-4 people so that I get no attachments. Let's see how it goes, if I could find someone or not, let's see how many people will reject me now because of the scars and various reasons. Hoping for something good to happen this time.

Apart from that I want to have some good job at this time, I mean some good paying job and doesn't matter what it is, till now I was looking for what kind of job it is, I was looking for something I like or I was figuring out what I like,I was being choosy but now I want to do anything because seeing the present situation, atleast if I will have a good job, I can ask papa to take voluntary retirement if he want so that I can support them financially which has become important now.

Apart from this everything is not okay but it will get okay, change is the only constant in life, so time be change, we will have a happy time too, if I find someone or not it is all destiny, but as you have to do the efforts so atleast I can give try to people, that's all I wanted to write but I want to write this also that I won't compromise a bit in anything as it is going to be a life long thing.

Anyways the funny part I received a request follow request on Instagram some massage services for female and they have templates saying massage provide full body massage from males for females, and it will be private, hahaha I just laughed at it for minutes but it's quite interesting and tempting too 😜😉.

Should I get one ? 😅🤩

Smalfalf's Dear Diary