Mermore's Dear Diary

Index
July 28, 2020
I ate a whole thing of Ben and Jerry's ice cream today.   Its not cause I'm upset or anything, I think I was just bored and didn't know what to fill my time up with outside of eating.  It's a little bit annoying because I've developed my active l
Jul 29
July 26, 2020
It was another good day. I dressed up in my best and went out to some new places. It's crazy to think about how many things are so close together.  That mall is by the book store we go to which is by the game store we go to and just dang.  So much ha
Jul 27
July 25, 2020
I was pretty much kept busy from the moment I woke up.  In the past I was always afraid of committing my time to a billion things.  I didn't want it in the way of other things that could have come up that day.  Now that I've started living a busy lif
Jul 26
July 24, 2020
Today I made some great improvements.  I was finally able to allow myself to communicate more with my co-workers than my usual short responses.  I had a conversation with someone.  It was easy knowing that he had mentioned building a gaming PC so tal
Jul 25
July 23, 2020
I faced some things head on today and I didn't break down. My mom knows about the break up and I was so terrified of breaking down in front of her today when she came to pick my little sister up from my house. It did not happen. I am proud that I was
Jul 24
July 22, 2020
Today was marginally better than yesterday.  I kept myself busy at work and even spent the day planning out an art piece.  It wasn't until after lunch hit that the sad thoughts began to move in.  It was all thoughts of the future and a bunch of what
Jul 23
July 21, 2020
Dear Diary, This is the second day in a row that I've spent my workday in tears.  The break-up was months ago, but every day is a gamble with how I'll feel.  I guess hearing yesterday that there is a zero percent chance that we will get back tog
Jul 21
February 15, 2023
So it has happened again. Another shooting at Cielo Vista Mall. The same mall that was targeted a few years ago here in El Paso, Texas. I'm so sad this world is so violent. Gunman at large after shooting in El Paso shopping mall | KTSM 9 News
Feb 16
February 15, 2023
My last entry was on December 5, 2022. A lot has happened since then and not all of it has been positive.  The following day I took my precious cat, Murphy, to my cousin who is a veterinarian. He was having trouble walking and staying upright. He wou
Feb 16
December 05, 2022
Dear Diary, Today was a good day. When I woke up this morning I sang a little happy song to my little dogs telling them how much I love them and how we were going to have a good day. I took my dad to his dialysis appointment, grabbed a coffee at Sta
Dec 06
November 29, 2022
Dear Diary, So here I am. I am still standing! Two years ago I lost my very lucrative corporate career to the Covid-19 pandemic. Like everyone else who lost a career, it came from out of nowhere. I had planned to stay in my line of work until I
Nov 29