Dear Diary,

It's only when you realize that the world doesn't really care about you as much as it says it cares about you, doesn't love you as much as it says it loves you, and it's only when you stop giving your attention to things the world wants you to give your attention to, and start giving your attention to things the

world doesn't want you to give your attention to, you can truly stop living a life of the illusion the world wants you to believe in, and start living a life of reality, the world doesn't

want you to believe in. It's only when you realize that the world is lying to you, you can see past all of its lies. It's only when you realize that the world is showing you the illusion, you can see past the illusion, and stare straight into reality. That's why the world wants you to think it cares about you, that it loves you, because the more you think it cares about you, that it loves you, the more you actually believe in the illusion of love and care it has for you. And that's why the world wants you

to give your attention to things the world wants you to give your attention to, and doesn't want you to give your attention to things it doesn't want you to give your attention to, because the more you give your attention to things that don't matter, and the less you give your attention to things that do matter, the more the world can use these things that don't matter against you, against your physical, against your psychological, against your emotional, and against your spiritual well-being. The world doesn't want you to be healthy within and without, the world wants you to be unhealthy within and without, the world wants you to be sick. The world is using your naivety of its care and of its love, and the world is using your attention against you, not to make you healthy, but to make you physically, psychologically, emotionally, and spiritually sick. That's why things are as they are, and they don't remind you of goodness of God, but they remind you of evil that defies God.

Because the world wants to make you sick. Not healthy, but sick. Because the sicker you are, the less healthier you are, and the less healthier you are, the more open you are to EVERYTHING it offers you. And what it offers isn't just things, but also ugly souls you look up to, ugly souls you admire, ugly souls who don't care at all about you, ugly souls who'd do anything to remain ugly souls, ugly souls whose job is to mock God. It's all because it wants to make you sick. And it works, because you're just too naive and thus you believe in the world's care and in the world's love, and you pay attention

on it, even though we both know that deep down, because of everything you can see, you shouldn't. There's a reason why these ugly souls are as humiliating as they are. They have to be. Because the more they humiliate themselves, the more they matter. The more they make their admireres sick, the more they actually matter. And the more sick they are, the more important they are to the world. They know that the minute they stop being sick, they don't matter to the world

anymore, and the world can as easily forget them as it's made them. So you see, you're not as healthy as you think that you are if you are one of their admirerers. All of this effects your physical, psychological, emotional, and spiritual health. And that means, it influences your body, your mind, your heart, and your soul.

The more you actually pay attention to it, the more influence it has on your body, your mind, your heart, and your soul. And in a matter of time, you become sick, you become corrupt, and you don't even know it.

Twyla Chandra 's Dear Diary