Dear Diary,

About a month ago I did something crazy!!!

I randomly started thinking about JH, I tried to find him online to see what he's up to, but I couldn't find any active social media accounts.

I then typed his name into google and I found his home address.

Yep... so I decided to write him a letter.

I wrote, I cant stop thinking about you and how it would be nice to talk / see you again.

I also asked him to put a hint somewhere online to show that he is active on social media.

I sent the letter 1st class. I checked his Instagram a few days later and in his bio he put '📬✉👀'.

My heart started racing, I panicked... He got the letter!!.

This was my chance to speak to him, but I fucked it up with what I did next.

I made a fake Instagram and messaged him from there. I apologised for sending the letter and told him to forget about it all. JH said its ok just tell me who you are. I was so scared to tell him who I was, but he said he thinks he knows who sent the letter.

I shit myself and refused to tell me him. I was so embarrassed. I blocked him on the fake account and left it at that.

I hate myself so much I regret sending the letter, I should have just messaged him from my own account and hoped for the best.

I still can't stop thinking about him 🥺❤

TLDR: I sent a letter to my crush and instantly regretted it.

M. Lost's Dear Diary