I've been so very tired lately. It's like I'm back in high school where I'd procrastinate sleep, go to sleep late, and stay tired at school, except now it's work. I don't know why I'm like this. And if I do go to sleep at a decent time, I'll wake up like every hour.

Life has had it's difficulties for me and Da, too. He had to move back in with his parents since his aunt+uncle were denied a loan and have to sell their house. Da's brother+wife are separating which lead to brother being suicidal and spending 3 or 4 days in the hospital. He's doing better now, but it's still rough. Da loves his brother so much.

I had issues at work with boss-type people telling me I couldn't go home until they told me I could. I asked the store manager about it and he said they are wrong and I need to leave when I'm supposed/scheduled to. Store manager's last day was yesterday and now he's going to a different store. No one really knows who the new store manager is gonna be. My old rat-faced boss is moving to a different department thank god and someone who works in another department is supposed to replace him in about a week. She's supposed to be really nice which is a great relief.

I bought some pretty faux nails and applied them on Thursday the 21st and they didn't last long. Mine and my dad's coworker and friend said we should get our nails done together soon. I've never had my nails done professionally. I'm a bit scared they'd look at my nails and they'd say they're disgusting. I mean, they wouldn't say that to my face but still.

I need a haircut. I have so many split ends. I also need some more blonde on my tips. I need to figure out a time to get that done.

Da and I have been playing Nexomon which is almost the same thing as Pokemon. They have lots of cute monsters. I love them. I managed to catch a legendary Nexomon at level 8 with a regular nexotrap. For some reason it reminds me of Drampa and Entei combined. Neither of us have played in about a week probably. Da is still unpacking bit by bit.

I miss Da so much all the time. When there aren't a whole lot of customers at work, he's all I can think about. Thursday and Friday I spent so much time daydreaming about the time I had spent with him on Tuesday, the 26th. We couldn't hardly do anything other than cuddle. We also couldn't restrain ourselves and had to have sex. It was some great fucking sex. I want to kiss him so bad, even now, although I can't see him again until Tuesday. I feel so separated from him since we can barely even text each other due to work and sleep schedules. I message him during every break. I wish we could live together, but money is a big issue as well as his parents house having cats and mine not having space for him. I'm constantly dreaming about the time when we can finally sleep together every night.

I started my period this morning. I had a dream where I was masturbating in the bathtub of my childhood house and having bad cramps at the same time. I woke up and realized I was actually having those cramps. I think this is going to be one of those troublesome periods.

Last night J woke up at 5:35am and told me to sleep with him. I didn't get back into my own bed until 7am.

I requested the two days after my birthday off and they both got rejected. I guess I'll work the day after since it's an important date for our company and call out the day after for minimal damage. I want some birthday time off and I want to spend time with my boo.

I've been thinking the past few days about getting a new tattoo soon, maybe for my birthday. I also wanna try to talk Da into getting a tattoo that matches mine, but isn't exactly the same. I got a Love Ball tattoo a couple months back and I know he likes the Moon Ball. I think he should get one.

My grandma's dementia is getting worse. Within the past two weeks, she told my mom that she wants to "call the law" on whoever is stealing her stuff and "if that doesn't work I'll shoot them." She's been saying my dad and I have been stealing stuff from her and therefore she wants to shoot us. There is absolutely zero evidence of us stealing or going into her room without her permission because we've never stolen anything from her or broken into her room.

Also within the past week she claimed to have seen my grandpa's ghost in her room at night. That's actually the second time this month she's said that.

And yet she thinks our doctor is nuts for saying she has dementia.

A lot has been going on and it's hard to remember everything during one sitting. I've been wanting to write entries, but I've been busy or I wanted to relax and not think about everything. I could write entries in the morning before work, but I've dedicated that time to reading manga.

When I get home from work I want to play animal crossing and Nexomon. Soon Brilliant Diamond and Shining Pearl will be coming out so I'll be playing that eventually. I just bought Mario Party Superstars and Da definitely wants to play that with me sometime. When I'm not playing games after work, I'm watching Sailor Moon, eating, taking a shower while watching Bob's Burgers, and getting ready for the next day. I don't have a lot of time.

Donamaria's Dear Diary