Chloe's Dear Diary

Dear Diary, Today I had 2 mental breakdowns. I had a very traumatic childhood and I never felt loved by my parents. They never supported me. They never hugged me when i was crying. They never listened to me when I needed someone to talk. I got bull

Dear Diary, I had a mental breakdown just a few minutes ago..two days passed without a mental breakdown or a panic attack. But today was miserable. At first I felt motivated and I was so optimistic but this changed really quick.

Dear Diary, There is so much stuff to do but I always feel so powerless and tired. I am learning to push myself and keep going. This is a very stressful and emotional because it offers a mental strength and practice and patience. Today I was able t

Dear Diary, I want a job. I want to have a social life again but this is impossible for me right now and for the next 3 month + because recovery takes time and patience. And I will take the time I need to recover. I will not push myself to recover

Dear Diary, I‘m thinking about getting in though with old friends. During my toxic relationship with my abusive ex boyfriend I was not allowed to talk/chat with friends nor with family members. But now I’m free and I want to get back my social life

Dear Diary, Had a mental breakdown again today. I can’t deal with this emotional rollercoaster anymore. It is hopeless to try to ignore my thoughts and trying to fight against my panic attacks. I tried it several times but ended up having an even w

Dear Diary, I don’t need a reason to cry or to be depressed. Sometimes it’s just a psychosomatic thing. I don’t need flashbacks to attract me. I don’t need a trigger. Sometimes i feel sad and depressed out of the blue. And as soon as i realised tha

I survived another day *yay* and I survived at without having a mental breakdown. But this is nothing to be proud of. Because this can change in 0.6833728 seconds. This is why i love sleeping - i can’t have a panic attack or a mental breakdown while

Dear Diary,  My family don’t support me. They don’t understand my feelings and my goals. But i will prove them wrong!!! They will regret that they not believed in me. I will prove them wrong. I am so angry and sad right now.

Had a mental breakdown just a few minutes ago and I haven’t recovered from it yet. I still can’t calm down or stop shaking and crying. I feel so alone and like a failure. I want to get back on track and meet my friends. I want to get in touch with th