Chloe's Dear Diary

Dear Diary, She stopped talking to me on Saturday. As a matter of fact she ghosted me. I feel lost. I was so lonely before she came into my life, everyone I’ve ever wanted to stay has left, and now so has she. Things have been so dark for me lately

Dear Diary, I’m so in love with her. Completely and utterly. How can that even be? I don’t even really know her. I want her. I’m constantly thinking about her. The way her fingers run through her hair. The way she laughs in my ear. How she says my

Dear Diary, Today I feel utterly lonely. And scared. I’m gonna have to move out my home sometimes next year and idk where to go. I have no where to go. I can’t afford rent on my salary and I’m scared. I’ve never had to be on my own before. Fend for

Dear Diary, It’s been a while. New development, I like a girl 🫢. Anyway, went to a Caribbean island on vacation and met this girl. I was immediately drawn to her and idk why. That same day we exchanged socials and she invite my friend and I out th

Dear Diary, All I want is a friend to hang with. Preferably a woman. My best friend migrated and I’d finally found such an amazing group of women, but they betrayed me, along with my bf. So not only am I single, but I’ve also lost my friends. I jus

Dear Diary, Men are just so fucking disappointing. Like even when they’re amazing, they’re disappointing. My bf is this amazing guy like truly amazing but there are times when I’m reminded of the fact that he’s 4 years younger than me. And who know

Dear Diary, I’m fed up of everyone in my house.  That’s all.

Dear Diary,                      Last night with Y was amazing. We ended up going my friend’s bday party and even though it took me hours to get dressed cuz the zipper in my dress was stuck and we were only out for like two hours, I still had an ama

Dear Diary,                      Ok so I’m gonna track how things go between Y and myself. As of today, we’re at a place where we call each other baby and baby, we spend nights by each other. We’ve gone on the most magical dinner date Saturday gone

Dear Diary,                           So I started seeing one of my friends that I’ve known since I was 17. Things seem to be progressing well, but don’t want to get my hopes up. We’ve always had a flirtationship going on since forever, almost had s

Dear Diary, Spending Christmas alone…fun.

Dear Diary, The feeling is back again. This feeling of loneliness. The feeling of fear. Fear of never finding him again. I miss him…whoever he is. So much. I miss his hugs and his cuddles. I miss his scent and the way he’d get dressed in the mornin

Dear Diary, at this point I must be bipolar or something. Yesterday I was over the moon and today I just feel so depressed. I hate not knowing where I stand with Stef. Idk if he just wants to hook up or if he’s seriously interested in me. It’s frustr

Dear Diary,                      Last night Stef came over and just wow, I didn’t realize how much I like him….and the sex. I just love spending time with him. We cuddled and watched a movie, well most of the movie lol but it was amazing. Tbh I don

Dear Diary, I want love. I miss giving love. I miss being loved. I miss the intensity of it all. The sex is meaningless after a while. A couple days ago I was on top on the world…and on top of this man’s dick lol, but it’s not enough. Why do I k

Dear Diary, Today I had 2 mental breakdowns. I had a very traumatic childhood and I never felt loved by my parents. They never supported me. They never hugged me when i was crying. They never listened to me when I needed someone to talk. I got bull

Dear Diary, I had a mental breakdown just a few minutes ago..two days passed without a mental breakdown or a panic attack. But today was miserable. At first I felt motivated and I was so optimistic but this changed really quick.

Dear Diary, There is so much stuff to do but I always feel so powerless and tired. I am learning to push myself and keep going. This is a very stressful and emotional because it offers a mental strength and practice and patience. Today I was able t

Dear Diary, I want a job. I want to have a social life again but this is impossible for me right now and for the next 3 month + because recovery takes time and patience. And I will take the time I need to recover. I will not push myself to recover

Dear Diary, I‘m thinking about getting in though with old friends. During my toxic relationship with my abusive ex boyfriend I was not allowed to talk/chat with friends nor with family members. But now I’m free and I want to get back my social life

Dear Diary, Had a mental breakdown again today. I can’t deal with this emotional rollercoaster anymore. It is hopeless to try to ignore my thoughts and trying to fight against my panic attacks. I tried it several times but ended up having an even w

Dear Diary, I don’t need a reason to cry or to be depressed. Sometimes it’s just a psychosomatic thing. I don’t need flashbacks to attract me. I don’t need a trigger. Sometimes i feel sad and depressed out of the blue. And as soon as i realised tha

I survived another day *yay* and I survived at without having a mental breakdown. But this is nothing to be proud of. Because this can change in 0.6833728 seconds. This is why i love sleeping - i can’t have a panic attack or a mental breakdown while

Dear Diary,  My family don’t support me. They don’t understand my feelings and my goals. But i will prove them wrong!!! They will regret that they not believed in me. I will prove them wrong. I am so angry and sad right now.

Had a mental breakdown just a few minutes ago and I haven’t recovered from it yet. I still can’t calm down or stop shaking and crying. I feel so alone and like a failure. I want to get back on track and meet my friends. I want to get in touch with th