Dear Diary, yesternight, mom n i had a little petty fight over cooking rice 🤦🏻‍♀️ I ended up not eating during dinner cuz i can't stand her presence. but I ate afterwards, at midnight. no rice left for me tho. (that means it was fine, but her reactions during our conversation was so much like I've done really bad stuff. but yes of course she has her worries i guess. but I can't stand that. she just wants her will to be followed) but the fish was good. And so with that, she moved to the other room again and slept there. I slept alone as my sister sleeps on top of the bunk bed. I was unable to sleep continuously. But it was fine.

I still don't feel like telling tita s 'bout my phone situation. cue drama. somewhere in me feels i don't deserve it and am gonna misuse it. first question would be is will she provide me one. but of course I am not logical. don't wanna process stuff in the linear way, i think it's boring. yey me. I'm really not gonna go anywhere in life with this attitude.

we watched dr strange with bbr couple days ago and there was this quote that 'it's not about you' and it kinda repeats in my head, i guess it's relevant to me. I could be so eccentric at times or just self absorbed.

rn borrowing my lil sis' phone *sigh. not much energy today. everytime I get self absorbed like stuff are about me, I'll just whisper that quote in my head. It's not about me.

Update: I am not gonna acknowledge that song. (which i kinda am doing rn) ~it must've been love but it's over now~ 🤦🏻‍♀️ I just heard that when I passed by a music studio. some part of me says it is funny. and yea i laughed a bit. cuz it never was love it is irritation. bought rice again. my former hs social studies subject teacher was there. there wasn't anyone on the other store and so i went there.

I have this thought that i just went and did stuff that i was told not to do like go to a private school, enroll for elementary education in college. yea. and if my memory's correct, those were bbm's words. i just had to try didn't I 🤣 I guess words can't stop me and I am not obedient and intelligent. I just go with the flow. wherever my fates would take me. my thoughts and other people's wills.

Bye now. my home. I'll be back. 😘 love alot 💝

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