Dear Diary,

Not a good day. I had on my list just a few things, but nothing worked.

FIR for shyam's phone, Getting his Death Certificate, My Doctor Checkup and My Finances.

Could not lodge the FIR - they said, I'll have to go to another police station of the same locality where the phone happened to disappear (I don't get it, why it should matter. It's not going to be there now anyway)

Could not get the Death certificate, apparently, it is probably not listed in the registry yet. And also we'll need a cremation certificate as well, I have to go to that dammed crematorium again just to ask, where to get the cremation certificate and then go to another shady place and collect it.

Went to the ENT Doctor, didn't know she would be so paranoid once I told her I was covid positive 3 weeks ago. She was keeping me at distance, did not even hear me, did not check me, I was hoping to get an endoscopy done, but clearly, she was ready to throw me out of hospital if I stayed for one more second. (HELOOO, I had covid, I don't have it now). And they don't return the hefty consultation fees they take for these 15 seconds useless interaction. She told me to go to a Lungs doctor.

I searched for at least 2 and a half hours on practo for a decent doctor whose consultation was not a 1000 bucks. And had appointments available today. Found one and visited him. He heard me from distance and told em it could be post covid allergy. Well I thought the same, is there anything new you can tell ?

He gave me same repetitive medicines, I have been hearing everywhere on Social Media these days. I practically remember those names now and feel I can prescribe to people too. (I have already done so bdw).

One new thing, I learned, how to use an Inhaler pump.

I also learned another thing, that doctors keep saying that don't google your symptoms, but it feels like doctors here don't know anything special anyway, they prescribe all sorts of medicines, hoping one would work at least (Even the medicines, for same problem, there are many(not just different brands, but different salts), and each doctor would prescribe a different salt(medicine) for the same thing, I feel its a gamble anyway, going to a doctor isn't much much useful all the time)

That's it.
Its Night now, I'll just look into a few things and sleep.

Bdw, I wanted to write to you first thing in the morning. I had a weird dream, I wanted to note it, Now I have mostly forgotten it.
I woke up an hour late today, I was lucid dreaming before waking up, It was something about making a ringtone, or making some special code or something(I don't remember what it was now, but i remember it was a problem and i was stuck with it, trying to achieve it somehow), I keep on thinking about different ideas on how to do it, everything failed, yet I kept trying and trying to fix something. When I woke up, I realized that what i was trying to do was meaningless, and not required at all. I realized, how sometimes we get stuck into a wrong problem and we get so obsessed into fixing that, we keep trying and trying different things, and not stop to think once, whether this problem should be solved now anyway...

Hasta luego, Goodnight ❤️❤️❤️

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