Why is it that some people can't understand that things can connect to a past event from years ago, and still have consequences years later?

Bryan's 43. It should come as a no brainer to him.

Well I'm considering to back off from him, and his lack of connecting events. Maybe it's a straight guy thing.

So I decided to get this open diary/journal thing. Where I can control public or private (which knowing me, unless it's something really bad, privacy isn't really needed).

I like being an open book. I've been through so much that a stranger knowing the abuse I went through doesn't really matter (you were raped on your 22nd birthday? Yeah, so, are you a therapist?). I doesn't matter who knows my history, or what they do with that knowledge. It doesn't effect me, not like before.

So I was mulested at age 7, beaten every night from 18 to about 21, raped at 22, and went through Katrina in the Superdome at age 24. More crap happened after that but I guess less note worthy. So yeah, do with that dit bit as you wish. Lack of this thing called care.

Sorry I can be a bit cold about my past. People can make dramatica events seem like the end of the world. I don't know about you, but if the end of the world happens I want middle row seats to it. So I can see what to expect, but not feel bad of being the soul survivor.

Of to cross stich land. My special (short bus. Special needs) friend, Bryan is having a baby, and I've been working on a keepsake personalized counted cross stitch picture for the baby.

P.S. I personally can't get pregnant, so when a friend gets knocked upb I get baby crazy for a bit.

The reality that I will never experience having my own sets in every now and then, but when I'm rwady I am planning on adoption. That I can't wait for. Some kid is going to have crap for luck when I say, "I want." Sorry futurw kid. Sorry ahead of time.

Misspixie's Dear Diary