Dear Diary, I took elementary German class in University when I was a sophomore. The teacher was a lady like lady. Her voice and her manner made me sleepy many times. She brought the class sweets of German some times and we enjoyed tea time.

One day she asked us if we have any preferred way to learn the language, and I asked if she could use her recommended songs so that we can learn the lyrics with sounds.

What she brought was the one and only Rammstein!

The song was “Sonne”

I love rock music so yep I liked the song. However due to the assumption I had in her music taste, I was very surprised tbh.

But to be fear, in the class we had a student who likes German metal so I guessed she knew that and chose the song for him.

But like… lest of the class seemed all fainted and confused.

He and I enjoyed the class that day.

I don’t know but since about 3days ago I started to dig their music on Spotify. I don’t understand the language yet so I could purely enjoyed their music. I loved them all.

But I suddenly decided to check out the translated lyrics. Turned out they had very deep topics, comparing songs I usually listen to.

Like… I had never known how humans were complicated existence; how humans had complicated desires etc.

I am a human too. I am kinda scared even though I don’t find these things within myself yet. How about humans around me? Slight of them or some of them are trying to hide when I say hello to them? Like… desire wanting to be eaten by someone? Eaten???!!!! I knew the song eat me alive from a movie but I felt it was okay cuz it was fiction. I think I hope it’s rare case but umm

Yeah They are one of a greatest artist I know. Not so many people can express these kind of theme. I think I can’t stop dig my ear holes with their musics.

I feel very tired now. I don’t have any motivation to take shower by myself alone tonight… scared to be sleep in my bed alone. Scared to be alone in the dark. But I can’t stop listen to them.

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