Millie's Dear Diary

Dear Diary,   How long has it been? I think it's already a year that I haven't write here. Anyway, life is not really great at the time. Hence, I am doing well and better. The beginning of 2024 was tough. Much tougher during the middle of the ye

Dear Diary,    Wake me up. These few days seems so rough. They're back and I don't have enough strength to fight back. At times like this, I wish I could unhear what only I can hear. The screams are too loud for my liking. Is this a curse? I wan

Dear Diary, things seems to get rough these days. I don't know how long I could go on. People come and go, I know. Just wish that you wouldn't. I wish that you stay. But I can't be selfish, right? Damn I miss you so bad. Really want to ask how you're

I looking for peace and tranquility in my life, I tired of all this fuss and problems.

I have anger issues. Sometimes it leads me to a dark place where I have some evil thoughts and even execute some of those evil thoughts. I will never forgive myself and honestly I only remember these evil thoughts when I am in these dark moods. I jus

Dear Elvis, I remember being invited to your birthday party. I was pretty sure you had a girlfriend who was my ex but I did not care. The way you looked at me,the way you talked to me. Maybe I was reading between things but when you looked at me whil

Dear Elvis, I wish you told me you were seeing someone else before you persued me and I fell in love. I was enchanted to meet you . You treated me nice and within the first week you said you loved me. You gifted me and showed me affection. Only to fo

Dear Diary,Well, haven’t whined in a few days. Learning fast I wasn’t the nourishing parents. Colton has a good old case of the flu. Callie took care of so much with that kid. I was more of the shake it off and keep going parent. He is so under the w

Dear Diary,Well, the day went much better than I thought Colton opened presents. He did ok with it. The things Callie got him, he opened, but left them in the wrappings from the store never said a word, then after we finished the took them to his roo

Dear Diary,Colton is asleep, he was worn out so I had time to get his stuff out I know he doesn’t still believe in Santa, but it is the first without his mom, she was so into Christmas, Callie had already bought 99% of his gifts All that was left was

Dear Diary,Up early even for me, read the transcript last night still have not listened to the recording. I checked on Colton at least a dozen times last night. It’s going to be a long day I want to talk to him about what I read, but my gut says not

Dear Diary,Colton finished discing for the year I got the yearlings tagged and worked. Then cooked dinner. Colton gave it a C- that is my best grade yet on dinner. The investigator that worked Callie’s and Colton’s accident came by to talk and update

Dear Diary, Colton had a great day. I picked him and Carey up from the field. The first words out of his mouth Dad loves that 9520R we could keep it right, Auto steers are so cool. He is being his old self, looks happy, sounds happy, acts happy. Toda

Dear Diary,Guess it’s not getting up early when you do it every morning 3 am. Not sure why my body picked that time. Start the coffee. Someone sent me a single cup something to make coffee. Colton showed me how to use it, like my coffee pot on the s

Dear Diary,Rode the tractor most of the day. Colton had a great time with Carley and her family. I managed to get about 100 acres done. So good day, I wasn’t sure about letting Colton go, but glad I did, He walked out of here smiling, guess until we

Dear Diary,Be kind of short today or at least for now. Have a lot of ground to cover work wise. Colton is going with Carey and her family to some Christmas carnival fair festival thing. He’s functioning somewhat so maybe getting out with Carey will h

Dear Diary,Up early again 3:25 am making coffee building a fire in the stove to help knock the chill out. Checked on Colton, still asleep (of course he is, it’s 3:30 in the morning). I find myself waking up and going and just looking in his room seve

Dear Diary,Well, everyone kept telling me it would hit Colton in stages and something would set him off I have no idea what set him off but he finally had a melt down Me: Colton you have your school thing in the morning till noon (he is on a cattle

Dear Diary,Well, it was a long day up at 4:30 am mixed feed and put out 35 rolls of hay. Didn’t feed for Colton, after him getting mad and telling me he was not 5. Took him to the café for breakfast first time to go on Sunday morning Since Callie pas

Dear Diary,So here it goes Callie and Colton had gone to a school program. I was out of town, taking a load of cattle to Colorado. They were heading home and it was raining pretty hard, we have a section of road that has the worst hair pin curves in

Dear Diary,Went to the city got all the errands done for the week got TV dinners per Colton. Colton hung out with one of his buddies when I got back, he had found a teaming roping about an hour from the house. He was so excited winners got a belt buc

Got Colton off to school since he had a bad night at breakfast, I ask him if he wanted to stay home and sleep in before I couldn't even finish, he said no I can't miss school, he paused and said I have a test. Who knew the secret to getting him to ge

Dear Diary, I should be happy in my life but I’m not why? Cause I’m alone. I don’t have anyone to cry with him laugh, eat, hang out with him, to celebrate on his birthday I don’t have this one. I just want a true friend someone to cry ,

Dear Diary, Today I'm so happy because I feel like I'm not sad anymore and I realized that nothing important in this life more than my happiness and my health so yeah I start laughing with my sister and also my best friend is my sister and she s

Dear Diary,   im so tierd right now im tierd of my life ok basically i live with my mom and with my 2 sisters , and I really don't want to live with my mother because she dont't care about me at all and she always screaming and when I try talking

Dear Diary, why is this happening to me why I did that I fall in love with someone don't even know me I don't know how can I meet him and I'm crying every single day because I can't see him with someone else but it's not his fault because he don