GlowUpBarbie's Dear Diary

Dear Diary, It's my first time at here. I found this place because some people on one blog has give advice to use this for improving skill in English. I scare when I have to use English to talk with my colleague. I don't have enough confident. But

Dear Diary, I found a new place now I'm just waiting to get in the new place will be empty no love nothing to come home to but I'm still getting out of bed every day so that's a plus

Dear Diary,              The hurt of a heartbreak it feels so lonely even when you are surrounded by tons of people.  I thought I had found my forever but I guess I was just her right now.  I miss the touch and I miss looking into someone's eyes ev

I had 5 panic attacks today and i haven't recovered from them yet. I feel like i was runnig for hours but i sat on the bathroom floor crying and i could not breath. I felt like there is no escape... and i still feel that way. I can't stop overthinkin

Dear Diary, Iam thinking about sharing my story on youtube. BUT without showing my face and body because i feel so ugly and fat. I want to break silence. I want to make new friends may build a community but i am also scared about it. I am afraid th

Dear Diary, I can't take this pain anymore. I was so hopeful because of my appointment for today but at the end i went home dissapointed again. I feel so alone and there is no hope left in my soul. Now i just let it be if soething good will happen

Dear Diary, Negative self talk and a self doubt is as normal to me as drinking water every day. No matter how many self-help books i read i am not able to follow this tips. I feel so stupid. I love self-help books especially books about spiritualit

Dear Diary, Finally i survived another day. I had several mental breakdowns again and i always try so hard to not cry but every day i am falling apart. I don't know how to stop this flashbacks. I tried to meditate but - failed I am not able to cal

Dear Diary, Sometimes i feel like i will never find happiness and live a life without depression and anxiety. Everything seems so hopeless. I just want to be happy and healthy. I want to talk about it but i am also afraid of talking about it becaus

Dear Diary, I need professional help. I can't deal with this flashbacks anymore. Flashbacks about what my abusive Ex-boyfriend did to me..I am so afraid. I hate him. I hope he will end up in jail but i'm fearing the trial. I don't what to tell ever

I feel so empty and i am sick of trying. Everything seems so hopeless. I wish that i could stop feeling so much. I hate my life. Waking up and asking myself WHY ? became a huge part of my daily routine..I have no one to talk with and i am so sick of

I feel so alone and everything is so hopeless. Every day i feel more and more depressed. I am crying like a baby every day. I had a mental breakdown 2 days ago and haven't recovered fro, this yet. I still feel like i haven't slept for 96hrs or more.

Every day is a battle. A battle with myself and with my demons called depression and anxiety. I feel so alome and lost. Sometimes i think i should give up. Give up fighting against my depression. I should let it b. It is so stressful to try to NOT ha

Dear Diary, i had the worst mental breakdown ever yesterday and i haven't recovered from it yet. I'm feeling like i'm having a big hangover but without any alcohol. I juust want to stay in bed but i also want to be able to enjoy my life.

I am disappointed and ended up having a painc attack again. It sucks that nothing works the way i want it to. I am sick of trying. I am sick of getting disappointed every day. I am sick of waiting to finally get help. I am sick of those people who ar

I feel so depressed all the time. I thought that i am used to it one day but the truth is that i`m not used to it and i will never be used to it. I am so trapped in my mind and this sucks. I feel so hopeless and i am afraid that i never will be able

Dear Diary, I think I'm finally starting to feel a little better from the heartbreak. Finally I've come to accept what happened, and willing to move on now. Right now, I want to focus on myself, and seek happiness from inside. I'll be fine without

Dear J,I forgot who I was before we met. But I was happier for sure.

Dear Diary, I want to stop thinking of you and move on. But it's so hard when I really felt love for you. It's even harder because you revealed to me that you didn't care. Somehow I still wish I had you.

Dear Diary,  It's been 3 days since I've left my boyfriend. He was emotionally abusive so I think it's a good thing walking away. However, I still feel horrible. I've been crying everyday since. My heart and my mind are at war. He made me feel so sp