Dear Diary, so weird to write this kind of stuff…but I just tried to shave down there for the first time. I usually just trim. It’s really first time to shave such a thin skin area.

I don’t know… I just want to do something other 20’s do. And I felt it look less gross without hair. I secretly bought what I need. And today I tried. It doesn’t work easily like the instruction says. It doesn’t work enough like the instruction says. I feel stupid. I don’t want to go waxing because it’s embarrassing.

Well what’s worse is… I tried that shaver on my armpit if it works with there..

And I applied melanin inhibitor plus moisturizer too. It feels tingly and painful. This makes me feel miserable and more stupid.

And the radio DJ decided to play Born This Way by Lady Gaga…

I feel sad I don’t know what to do… I was born this way but YouTube ads are like you have to go to laser hair removal otherwise everything talk behind how lame you are. I thought I didn’t really care about it because I knew it shows me based on my gender and age. But it gradually started to working.

Meh… feeling miserable with these things and that makes me feel extremely stupid.

It’s first time ever… Born This Way hits me this way and makes me feel so sad and stupid.

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