Dear Diary,

Hey, I wanted to write but was feeling lazy so many things have piled up and I am gonna write some highlights of them here, so firstly, the meeting with that guy and his family went well, obviously I found his parents especially mom quite conservative, like why my boy will do any household chore or why he will even help you afterall it's all the girl's duty apart from that everything was fine, the guy was quite sophisticated but as I told earlier it's a kind of mismatch, he being slim or I should say skinny, the only thing I didn't liked about him was his hairstyle, he didn't even knew cooking but that's okay, everything was going well everyone was happy but for them the shocker was my scars 🤣 they may have thought that I might have some physical limitations too but it's only scar nothing more but I noticed how their expressions and gesture changed suddenly before that they were quite happy, clicking pictures with me but I am like how can I decide to say yes to someone in just one meeting afterall it's a life long deal, anyways we returned home next day and we were stuck in heavy rainfall with zero visibility and cherry on the cake was the hailstorm but it was quite adventurous, and yes how could I forget to mention that all of sudden Harshit textexted me that day firstly he sent the message then unsent it then again but I was unable to chat with him as I was traveling with my family but I got to know that he wasn't okay that day, he was anxious and was craving for the things we shared somewhere in the past but he can't say that because he is married now and I didn't knew this and it was little weird for him and me too so we had a normal conversation with don't know what to say type but I suggested him to get a plant for his office desk, my parents are waiting for the response but they are taking time that means it's gonna be a no. I really don't care, I need some time to transform me physically as well as in other things too. But my parents do care, they were quite happy but are prepared for rejection too. Sometimes I think that are my scars worth enough to get me rejected, does anything else doesn't matter, does it not matter how I am from inside or as a person how much I am confident as a person, I find my scars cool, I have accepted myself and hope to marry someone who will accept me as me, for who I am, for my soul, not for my physical appearance, btw I look good too 🤣, I am cute as everyone says. I have just wasted 2 days, I bid a goodbye to Shikhar too as holding on will only gonna hurt me, as he should also move on and meet new girls, I will try to stay away. Rest all is fine. Right now I am sitting at my fav place the terrace but mosquitoes are biting. Anyways I have decided to go back to workout routine, eating healthy and it's high time to start studying as exams are near and why the hell I haven't started assignments yet. I need to, I will do every possible thing or I should say atleast I will give a start for my transformation. I will take a 7 days challenge. .

Okay bye 😗

Kitkat1800's Dear Diary