Dear Diary,

It has been many years since I've actually sat down and written anything so I am not sure if I should just begin at the beginning of life or just vent about now. I guess I can go back and forth.

We are almost into March 2021 and I am already sick of this year. Dont get me wrong, it's definitely better than 2020 but now my mother in law lives in my dining room and I'm on the verge of being on the next episode of "Snapped"

She moved in with us for her safety. She was falling at her home and was no longer taking care of herself. For the first month of her being here, I (4'9" 120lbs) would lift her, transfer her, clean her, change her, serve her hand and foot, would wake up all hours of the night to take her to the bathroom. My husband and I both thought she could no longer walk more than a foot and 2.

Then her home health care nurse told on her. She can walk (with a walker) make her own food, get in and out of bed, wash herself, take herself to the bathroom, can change herself EVERYTHING!

I have been beyond angry with her ever since. I feel used and abused. I have lost hours of sleep, waited on her every need, just to find out she needed none of that. Am I selfish? Maybe, but I was hoping my first year of marriage would have been way different (even though we have been together for 7 years).

I was enjoying being a stay at home wife and mom, but now I am frantically looking for a job just to get me out of the house and away. It's pretty bad when your medication is no longer working and other medical issues have decided to come back to light because of all the stress.

Send help,

Sarah

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