Dear Diary,

Hi,

This is a rant entry.

Right now, I am feeling so anxious but aaj ka din bhi ajeeb tha...subah se mood up and down ho raha hai.

Mood up and down nahi...I am literally angry. Subah subah mummy 6 baje hi utha di as they wanted me to go the airport. I woke around 8 am with a great headache and went straight to the airport only to find out that the person I went to pick up has reached home already and I was super angry that time.

I was angry during the lunch time as well coz mummy said that arrival of guests won't disturb me at all but I literally ended up cooking so many things every time...I was angry coz I wanted to have tea... but then she asked to make it for other people as well.

I know she wasn't fine today health-wise but that's my point, don't invite them compromising your health and all, then I was angry on him as well, I don't know what's going on and I literally need clarity at this time. I can't live with this uncertainty, promising something, doing something else, he should understand that we were supposed to get engaged today which literally got postponed according to my family but I feel that it got cancelled, and Idk that he is the person I said yes for, no he isn't, the current person is something else...

Anything I do, anything I say, he reacts in such a weird manner, I don't know how to deal with things, I don't know how I should act, I don't know is waiting for him is a good thing or bad thing, is it a waste of time, emotions or energy or something fruitful will happen.

Right now, I feel so heavy, head pains as it will explode and I need to wake up early tomorrow.

😔

Grumpy 's Dear Diary