Dear Diary,

I am trying to figure out what to do about this depression. It goes beyond not having time with my husband... It's the loss of interest in everything. I used to love work, and now I can't even seem to make myself focus on it at all. I used to love playing some different video games, and now I can't even make myself turn them on... Talking to people, sometimes friends want to call or online chat, and it just makes me even more depressed when I do talk to them, so I started to avoid that even. I usually love to cook, and that has become flavorless, and minimal... I feel sorry for my dog, I have even stopped walking her and just let her run around the back yard more. I was never really big about going out anyways, so I am not missing shopping or bars or whatnot...

My nightmares have been getting worse and more frequent again. Always bad memories. Sometimes I have even started doubting the memories cause they get so blended and jumbled in my dreams. Sometimes there are things in my dreams that I don't remember too...

I don't what to sleep, I don't want to do things, I don't know what to do. I try to make myself do things, and it just adds to the sadness...

DarkPlace81's Dear Diary