I posted an entry 4 hours ago and saying my heart hurts. Four hours later and my heart is a little bit warmer.

After posting, I continued crying from reasons of my previous post and played a couple rounds of solitaire, trying to prepare myself for sleep. Right as I finished what would be my last game of the night, my 5 year old nephew woke up.

Usually when he wakes up, he will go to my parents' room and my mom has to lay with him for him to go back to sleep. This time, he turned the light on and asked me to sleep with him.

MY HEART.

His timing was impeccable. I was over here crying myself to sleep because I'm lonely as hell and he asks me to sleep with him. 😭❤

He has no idea that I had been crying and no idea what it meant to me for him to ask me to sleep with him.

The only downsides to sleeping with him are that my neck always hurts afterwards, I can't stretch my legs out like I'd like, and I feel like I'm gonna fall off the edge of the bed. Also, I wake up every time I need to turn over.

Despite the difficulty sleeping...

I needed that last night.

Now I'm going to eat some oreos and sleep in my own bed. ✌

Edit: I also made a new high score in solitaire last night and I was a little proud of it.

Hodu's Dear Diary