Senabeyondrealism's Dear Diary

Life before you, fast and clear. Life after you, slow and contaminated. Still I hold the grudge, still I think hard.  Yet you pass by and I ignore it all. I abide by the rules, true and hard. I witness the aftermath, raw and ropy. Nor fair, nor

I need to slow down… Wayyy faster!

7:45pm...one Friday night:  It was almost time for my Zoom catch up with my bestie.   Unbeknownst to me, she had ordered a cake for my belated birthday and timed it to arrive just before our call (so we could celebrate together) Super sweet! 

"How's the music teaching going?" "Oh you know...there are highs and lows...we call it pitch!" xD It's been a crazy term, but I'm grateful for my job.  But also, super grateful that the holidays have arrived!

"Miss, what's your first name?" #TeacherLife

When I was in Primary School,  I received an award for my attendance rates.  I was absent, the day they handed out the awards. Haha.

Poetry Prose Puns Oh and a sprinkle of alliteration and whatnot 😊 Welcome to my trillions of thoughts Hope you don’t get lost in them! 🤪

He is risen  He is risen indeed  I'm forgiven  Oh, I am redeemed. Loved watching the sunrise this morning and reflecting on how Jesus rose from the dead.  Happy Easter!

"Friday's good 'cause Sunday is coming Don't lose hope 'cause Sunday is coming" Happy Easter!  Sunday is Coming - Phil Wickham

RestResetReflect

Feelings are fickle  Feelings are strange  Feelings are fickle  And feelings can change

I’ll write you, A letter That you’ll never read I’ll write you, This song That you’ll never hear Cause I don’t wanna say Say too much In front of your face I don’t wanna say Say too much Cause it’s not my place But all of

Dear Diary, feeling happy after i draw this picture 🙂🙂🙂🙂

Dear Diary, i found my target. Its time to start my journey. Soon i ll reach that mountain top.........

Dear Diary, now my days are moving good.. hope soon i ll became a notable person in youtube channel

Dear Diary, i hope i can achive something. But i need some resources to achive my goal.. in school days i realized that i m good at art. Then i studied my graduation in fine arts. Now i m feeling that i m a capable person to be a professional artist.

Dear Diary, I achieved my today target. I realize that what we need in our life. I need to reach a mountain top part. That is my aim. With someone help I used to go by helicopter mean that achievement won't be value.. But that real value is how I tra

Dear Diary, I successfully done my today task. After I HV done this drawing I learn many things. Sure I will give better one tomorrow... Feeling happy

Dear Diary, after long time gape. I did one pencil sketch.. Feeling OK now. But I need more practice time to improve my self. I hope here after I lo get that time

Dear Diary, we have to be happy in our life no mater in what situation  we are and what we have. When pain, misery, or anger happen, it is time to look within u,  not around u. Happy friendship day dear dairy.

Dear Diary, there is no word failure in humans action.  if we r try to do something we will get result of success or lesson nothing is here failure.

Dear Diary, i told u that before my profession and aim is deferent. Profession which i hv now aim which i moving towards my life. In this travel i m acrossing many difficulties. I m becoming more strong When i faced each difficulty. This strong ness

Dear Diary, i would like to do art as a service To our society. Problem is when i was a starving student i dint find inspiring teacher. Now i m a teacher but i can not find starving student here. In this busy world how i ll get attention of the socie

Dear Diary, today i learned one important thing.if we have only power on our dream thats not enough to reach it. We hv to prepare something our body also to achive our goal. To achive our goal we need to do powerfull actions. Powerfull action's will

Dear Diary, i am an artist. I completed my graduation in fine art at 2014. i married last year 2018. From One week ago now i hv boy baby. to manage family financial situation i m doing job as a teacher. But my ambition is to became a freedom artist.

Dear Diary, Days are passing. My thoughts are getting weak. I hv an goal and i know the path also to reach it. But my days r not going according to my plan. But still i m trying my best to reach my goal. Soon oneday i ll reach it. Now days i need s

Dear Diary, Proud to say I will definitely be successful soon, even tho the book "I Don't Like My Grandpa" which may gain me a 100k followers beforehand was an epic fail due to multiple outside circumstances. #我係咁串 #爺爺fail係為咗成就親生仔嘅成功

Dear Diary, 吸引力/假定法則果然係真，果然有效。但我對我嘅 desire 嘅正面迴響好似冇咩感覺咁。我仲諗緊點樣 manifest 一個車車位。最近無做運動都訓得好好。我 remove 咗個不速之客，我每日工作嘅心情都容易入到心流。爸爸情緒同我既關係都好咗，佢都開始有啲轉性。我嘅品牌夢想不完了！！ 我成日都 visualize 到 Ming 見到 Mitchell 間屋個一刻嘅感動。之後我哋就會係返埋一齊。我們大家都係為咗重聚呢一刻之前，努力咁令自己變得更好，亦更珍惜咁去

玩咗 GN 差唔多一星期，就頹廢咗咁耐，但好彩畫畫嗰度之前畫極都畫唔到既已經搞掂到好多啦，同埋畫多咗新個兩幅。好彩轉一轉方向啫。暫時剩返 4,5 幅比較難處理既畫，之後個 4,5幅都唔太難。如果 keep 住個進度，月尾前都應該可以搞掂既。同埋呢幾日搵到啱嘅人傾偈，心情都開朗返好多！冇咁易入返個黑洞到來回傷心，紫微個解說都好滿意。希望自己可以快啲完成本書啦。決定 NBB 唔好一齊出啦，反正想快啲有本書去做 folio。我要努力！ 迷你畫 checklist 1. The Birth of

今日依然係龜速進度，Narcissist 搞左我兩日，幅 The Creation of Adam 都 搞足我一日。。。開頭都以為係最易畫，點知搞咗成日。。。所以個進度畫咗兩幅都等於一幅。。。聽日希望可以追返啦。。。其實都開始專注，唔想再傾偈。 迷你畫 checklist 1. The Birth of Venus✓ 2. Liberty Leading the People✓ 3. Milkmaid 4. Las Meninas✓ 5. The creation of Adam✓ 6. Ve

呢個係我係 4/8 寫既流程表：四月1：Liberty Leading the People/Bacchus/Sistine Madonna 2-7： Rest & upper limb anatomy8-10：Chore & Rest11-30：慢慢畫迷你畫 之後我做好咗休息，家務同 anatomy study，都已經係 12 號既事，即係比預定時間慢咗一日啦。同埋聽日都未必畫到咁多畫，因為阿媽要做放射性治療。聽日又唔知駛唔駛同佢去，因為 14 又好似有啲野，所以要再決定啦。而家編埋新嘅流程表

對上一次寫日記已經係 4/2 啦。發覺自己有壓力毛病，所以透咗兩日又做咗小小野，發覺自己手個到，讀兩至三日就摸到個竅門，快咗好多。果陣時讀腳唔知點解會咁慢，就算到而家都唔係完全 get 到個竅門。。。可能因為我本身對手既認知好小小啦。最開心嘅係，唔止手臂熟，手腕位同手掌亦都係尋日內進步。呢個真係一個好好既驚喜。希望可以快啲完。另外 Van Gogh 展又延期，真好，做小樣野。 流程(慢活）四月1：Liberty Leading the People/Bacchus/Sistine Madonna

今日好攰，不過進度都算唔錯。其實3/31 嗰時就應該畫好 Bacchus，但硬係睇返最早期嘅 mini paintings 起稿，發覺有好多爺爺啲 structure 都唔純熟同埋唔一致。。。所以尋日有啲灰同埋要重新 check 過邊啲 ok，邊啲唔ok。好彩都唔算好大問題。不過發覺手真係唔係好純熟。果時其實 如果唔係用太耐時間研究 pelvis，我其實都想好好研究吓手臂同埋 shoulder 位，點樣捕捉得緊細緻。。。不過算喇。好彩今日畫畫吓都算補償返，都叫做搞好咗 3 幅，遲啲就要放入電腦畫

噚晚寫完日記之後，我再睇一次嗰啲 propaganda art 啦，就即刻諗多靈感喇！仲好鍾意～ 所以我決定今日畫埋個草稿去。呢幅會勁有 Propaganda art 嘅風味！開頭我諗到好似瓊瑤啲愛情片咁架，而家好啦個肉麻程度啱啱好，唔會太多亦唔會太少。 流程： 三月尾Pinocchia 簡體27：中英對照版校對/Text Layout/Thumbnail✓28：開場揼木✓/海怪食木偶✓/肚裡逃生✓ 29：木偶捉弄揼木爺爺✓/閣樓仙女✓/畫架✓/出走✓30：重逢✓/  四月1：迷你畫(last)

本來係整 text layout，但今日反而變咗係畫 rough。諗諗吓咁樣應該唔駛一頭半個月，最遲幾日都畫晒。可能如果專心啲嘅，聽日都畫晒個 6 幅，跟住搵一日畫晒 final draft，再係電腦上色。睇黎啲程序會愈畫愈快！如果畫完油畫，我想停一停畫自己品牌。 流程： 三月尾Pinocchia 簡體27：中英對照版校對/Text Layout/Thumbnail✓28：開場揼木/海怪食木偶/肚裡逃生 29：木偶捉弄揼木爺爺/閣樓仙女/出走30：畫框/肚裡相遇 四月木偶奇遇記 Final Dr

今日好心散，但總算跟到進度同埋都快咗。我諗如果我很的起心肝應該可以過多一兩個月搞掂。而且已經畫晒啲 thumbnails, 所以都唔錯，比第一次啲 drafts 做得更好添。希望下個月搞掂啦。多咗好多畫！！由 5 幅變咗 9 幅,真係好痴線！！ 流程： 三月尾Pinocchia 簡體27：中英對照版校對/Text Layout/Thumbnail✓28： Floorplan✓/Text Layout edit/AI 29-30：鯊魚設計 四月木偶草圖 木偶奇遇記 Final Drafts迷你畫

今日都算係咁啦，搞點好晒簡體版啲內容，但未搞掂啲標點符號同埋要 proof read，所以聽日 25 號要再繼續。我好嬲同好驚，每次同人講起hk開畫展嘅嘢都覺得好難受好委屈，好想報仇。我一定要證明比所有欺負我嘅人知，佢哋惹錯人。所以我要繼續努力咁走向成功。聽日搞掂好之後要整個 final 版俾人 edit，直頭係書嗰個樣俾人 edit 埋格式。睇黎 30 號前都未必可以開始草圖啦，不過算啦，反正都係一個禮拜到。。。 流程： 三月尾Pinocchia 簡體25：最尾個句&校對26-30：AI 

而家係下晝就黎 4 點，唔知自己畫咗幾多幅，但已經畫剩2(3)幅 mini 畫草圖。所以其實如果我很專注既話，都應該好快畫完。打算如果揸車前畫晒個 兩幅（有一幅遲啲先畫），咁就可以開始幫 Pinocchia 整理簡體版故事。應該快則今日搞掂，慢則 5，6日啦。。。一日一個故仔確實唔難喎。。。跟住下個月就全面 focus on Pinocchia.。我突然覺得之前個流程唔係做得好好，太概括，而家啲工序去到咁上下就可以細分。 流程： 三月尾Pinocchia 簡體四月1-10：木偶縮圖&草圖11-3

呢個係我尋日寫既流程。 昨日流程：三月 Strarry NightPinocchia 簡體版 四月1-7: Starry Night's house finalization8-21 : Pinocchia 啲 draft 22-30: 20 幅迷你畫嘅 drafts五月 1-15: Digital Painting Study16-31: Oil Painting Study and Practice六月- 八月oil painting month 但由於 Van Gogh Exhibitio

聽日試吓可唔可以畫晒個 19 幅草圖。至少一個星期内搞掂。至少每日畫3幅都應該唔難。又或者研究咗手點畫先。因為停咗。

Starry Night Rough Checklist:廁所(✓15)→客廳(✓15)→書房(✓15)→飯廳(✓16)→大堂(16✓✕)→睡房(✕16)→廚房(✕16) 就咁睇，今日既進度都有 50%。只係因為飛滋太痛。。。先會搞到咁慢。最重要係都有3間房係完全畫完，都算係咁啦。我諗 Distortion 就去完先做。可能畫多半個禮拜就會畫完呢幅。跟住要趕最重要個堆油畫。 April: kunstkammer April - June: Pinocchia 及其殘體版July: Digital