Dear Diary,

Kemper and I stayed up late watching movies. I woke up asleep with my head lying in his lap. I looked up and he was out. I woke him up and said I was going to bed. When I went to bed, he came in and crawled into bed with me and fell asleep. Honestly, it was nice. We didn't touch each other but it is nice to not feel alone at night.

He is at work today for a full day. He is happy about the work coming in. Being a mechanic in a small town can be tough! He said that is why he does so many runs when the weather is nice for the club, which makes sense.

Still no word from Ryan. I don't want to give up.

Today is another cold day and then it is going to have a freezing mix tonight.

I kind of have been thinking about Kemper a lot lately. He has been great about letting me be here and taking care of me while also giving me space when I need it. He also doesn't expect anything in return. Not sex, not money, nothing. I do make sure his place is clean and I do make him dinner every night because I have no other way of returning the favor besides helping him out. I guess, I could sleep with him but he would never go along with it. He has made it clear that it won't happen. He wants me to get better and focus on myself. All of it confuses me.

I just wish we could be a little bit physical with each other.

Ru's Dear Diary