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Crying to sleep.
I go to bed early, around 10pm because I already know The first 2 hours will go by crying, having a meltdown.. And finally fall asleep with squinty eyes that’s tired from crying so much every night. I guess you could call my diary a “depressing dia
Sep 14
So used to the pain.
I’m so used to being told to get over it It’s not a big deal It’s nothing Stop being dramatic It‘s not that hurtful It doesn’t matter Ignore it Forget it There’s nothing wrong Nothing to cry about I always hear them, So much That somehow
Sep 14
Poem: Wailing Heart.
I do not matter is how I feel But is it real? I sit there, in the darkness Wondering why I feel Melancholy. Am I really perceived the way I view myself, Or is it paranoia? My insecurities range inside whilst I conceal them from the surface. Th
Aug 10
Putting a toxic relationship behind
Dear Diary, Was in a toxic relationship(He was verbally abusive) last year and he kept breaking up and coming back to me and made me feel like a terrible person and guilted me like I'm not the type of girlfriend that'll support their boyfriends no
Jul 31
Importance of a Friendship First before anything else.
"You don't know what I look like when I'm not in love with you" This sentence right here, this is it; possibly one of my fears - Of falling in love with someone so quickly before actually getting to know them. Knowing what a person is like before th
Jul 10
A heart-to-heart my anxiety.
Dear Diary, why do I always have to think deep before bed? It’s hard to fall asleep and I really wish I could shut my thoughts off. I was in a little argument/misunderstanding earlier and I felt a little upset and noticed myself tear up a little.
Jul 03
May 22, 2025
Dear Diary, I hope I become someone I can be proud of. I hope I achieve everything I set out to be. I hope I get fit and healthy, both physically and mentally. I hope I don't fantasize about my death even if I plan not to go through with it because
May 22
November 21, 2022
Dear Diary, My biggest wish is to become a person people I love can be proud of but at the same time my biggest fear is that it is not going to be enough for them ; for me.
Nov 21
November 20, 2022
Dear anyone, I am going to stop eating until I faint of weight loss which wont happen anytime soon cuz I'm like over 100kg/220lb.I'll update when that happens.Bye.
Nov 20
October 16, 2020
Dear Diary, I just wanted some one to know this.If I ever die because I was stabbed in the heart four times it was not a murder ,I repeat 'NOT A MURDER' it was suicide but if some warm hearted person is worried about me ,I repeat 'if'.Don't worr
Oct 15
October 06, 2020
To any one who actaully cares, This is the first time im writing in here.i am a hindu.currently 14 years old and this is my POV on my life. But firstly, let's get this straight,I am definately not. I had my suspisions since I was 4,almost 5.I
Oct 05