Ayesha's Dear Diary

Dear Diary, So this summer I have been spending most of my time being chronically online, Specifically on tiktok cause I really am bored cause I had to stay at my grandma house or go work at my mom’s boutique the whole summer cause im done with

Dear Diary, i havent write much this summer because i have been chroniacally online on tiktok. Right now im back at home and tomorrow I have school, But it's the first day so I lowkey do not care.  Anyways, as I was saying before, I was very mu

Dear Diary A lot have happened recently after end of the year break.. Most significant thing is that I’m 18 now and because of this I finally get most of the things that I’ve ever wanted in my teenage years. First, I got my drivers license and pa

I've always dreamt of having someone in my life romantically but sometimes, I'm also glad that I am not in a relationship. Ever since I was 15 I've learn the truth that love is barely a real thing anymore these days. Nowadays it's only about lust

A lot of times I thought about how lonely I am in terms of a romantic relationship due to the pressure of studies and strict parents. I used to lie to myself thinking I don't really need a man in my life, but just seeing happy couples piss me off bec

Every time I see those corny ass couple in my grade it just piss me off so bad.  Everyday I go to school, there's always new cringy ass people in my grade that are a couple now and they make it so obvious they are dating. Like they tryna be showi

I'm so fucking tired of this family and household. It's all the same shit that happens all over again, and that brat will always have the opportunity to piss me off anytime just by saying a few word. She knows just how to push my buttons to make me s

Thank god now these people aren't really bothering me anymore. But sometimes I still bumped into Stella and now she just piss me off so much. I hate her. And that fucking burke. But that's not the point here.  So basically last month April 19, I

It has been years since I've actively written a diary on a piece of paper. A lot have happened recently since. Last time I wrote in a diary was in 2023 when I first arrived in Indonesia. And there is a lot to catch up now. A lot of things have been i

Dear Diary,  Today i am fine.  Not seeing my mother really make me feel better.  I should have done it a long time ago.  I just don't want her to be alone..  But i guest i need to. Of course  my kids with me. I just want to be happy..

Dear Diary, Today i heard it again.  "you should have just killed your son if you can't take care of him" I tried my best as i can.  To take care of my kids and to give them what they deserve. But to my mother it was not enough. Anything is no

Dear Diary, I always asked why am i alive? What's my purpose..  I was likea walking depression. Getting affected on everything i hear.  Is it just in my head or in my heart?

Dear Diary, Today i wanna die.