Dear Diary,I have a crush on a marred man

Wrong I know yet I can't get rid of my feelings its a sensual,anesthetic attraction

he makes me feel like a girl, I smile just knowing he Exist in the same world as me

nothing sexual "that doesn't make it okay"

but I want to look at him , be Hugged by his Present just being in the same room as him is enough this is all still wrong I know yet I remember every single conversation we have . It's the same thing give or take a few words " Hi, Hi, he opened the door for me or I opened for him . He asked if I'm going or staying I always say going. he asked where was I ?I tell ? he says you should get home or why are you still here or your going to be tired and we he ends it with a bye be safe I say bye and watch him walk away . The last time we talked before to day was the first time a felt his touch it was also the first time he told me he had a wife it was Slight touch on the shoulder as he was leaving the room.

I would trade the clouds in.the sky for that touch .

Belle's Dear Diary