Dear Diary, we'll I did just that decided to take the risk, but where did that get me? No where but with a broken heart, pain and numbness, I lost my dreams, and worst of all I lost myself... I have no idea what you've done to me but I'm not the same girl I was and I can't stand it but haven't a clue how to get her back.

It could possibly be the fact that you almost took my life from me because you were high.... Doctor said 35 more seconds and I wouldn't be here, I wish I could find and thank the old lady that night for saving me, she's my guardian angel and I owe her everything. As for you we'll I don't know why I fkn love you so much still.

But I realize now that I deserve way better and for once I'm saying "FUCK YOU " I'M GONE

I decided to walk away and never look back as hard as it's going to be life's more important to me than your abusive lying cheating mean bullying self centred narsassistic ass.

Just know that I FORGIVE YOU. Goodbye to the man I thought was my soulmate. 💔

87's Dear Diary