Emily's Dear Diary

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-TW: ableism and medical mistreatment, mental illness, talk of suicide and self-harm- Dear Diary,    I struggle with mental illness and physical problems, and because of my age, doctors and therapists do not take me seriously, it's frustrating,
Oct 24
August 29, 2019
Dear Diary, Today was a long draining day I had to sit for a minute and refocus and remind myself to put myself first and what I can't do today I can do tomorrow.
Aug 30
I Didn't Want It To Happen But It Had To
My husband wouldn't stop fussing about the shotguns I took to the police station. Every day and night for weeks he was combative. Tonight I couldn't take it anymore. The finger-pointing, tossing furniture around, name calling, and throwing around my
Sep 28
Community Property
While under spiritual attack, my husband threw out all of my spiritual supplies, making it harder to fight the person spiritually attacking us. He also threw out all of my CDs, DVDs, clothes, and shoes. I called the police. Basically they said someti
Sep 24
September 23, 2024
I've been looking for a new job for almost a year. I quit my job in March but was looking before then. I've had lots of interviews but still waiting on an offer that will be great. I am too experienced to take just anything. I've done that a million
Sep 23
September 23, 2024
My husband and I are under spiritual attack. This is not the first time. This has happened quite a bit since we married 12 years ago. I am not used to it. If he would help me cleanse him and protect him, it wouldn't be so bad. If he would wake up and
Sep 23
September 24, 2019
I've been having really vivid bad dreams lately. They really are not helping with the S.A.D. I'm experiencing already.  One dream, a co-worker called me to tell me we don't have enough people to serve so we're shutting down and I'd be laid off. Seeme
Sep 24
September 02, 2019
Went out kayaking with a cousin who I haven't seen since I was six. Found out heart issues run in our family. I recently started my journey of fitness, but worry my diet is horrible. I'm not sure where to start when it comes to eating healthier, can
Sep 02
August 26, 2019
I've been really productive today, a nice change of pace from my last two weeks of depression and lethargy. I feel something good is about to happen, and I can't help but feel positive. Unfortunately, I know this is temporary, but I like this feeling
Aug 27
How to Monday?
Dear whomever, How do you Monday? Here is my Monday morning ritual. 1. Wake up before sunrise 2. Start French Press Coffee 3. Feed my fur babies 4. Hygiene routine 5. Daily affirmations in the mirror 6. Walk my doggo 7. Move, move, move
Aug 26
Not your average Fam
I've been thinking about my family a lot lately. I mean, what else is new?! It's easy to think about something I never really had. At least not a stable one. Growing up, my mom was an alcoholic bar tender who brought home randos often. She was great
Aug 26
Music to Cope
I'm just curious. How significant is music to you and your life? I grew up listening to music of all kinds. I used to keep my parents (or whomever was supervising me that day) waiting outside of public bathrooms as a kid because the acoustics were am
Aug 26
February 26, 2020
Dear Diary, I feel like I have not written in like forever. I mean like it has only been like three days but still along time. Nothing really interesting has happened lately. Except for at my school the world studies teacher is doing this weird thing
Feb 27
February 23, 2020
Dear Diary, First thing would be thanks to the people that commented. I think I know what I would like to write about tomorrow. But first Idk why you would want to know about my love life. I mean like it is not that interesting but ok. I will try. I
Feb 24
February 22, 2020
Dear Diary, Honestly IDK what to write about. like, IDK what people want to read. I just started this yesterday. But like yeah. If you know what you want to read about or know what is fun to write about just leave a comment and I will try to write it
Feb 22
February 21, 2020
Dear Diary, I just started this. I thought just talking with people and not worrying about what people at my school will think. I have been through a lot but I am not one that wants pitty. Well if I am going to start this out I will tell you a bit ab
Feb 21