Dear Diary,

Hmm, It's been long again. And i am sorry. But you know, I couldn't find time to write to you. (I am lying to you, i had time, i just dint feel like writing. 😋).

But i'll write a lot of stuff to you today.

Last week i went to this human library event. I dint actually hope for anything, and i would have returned without listening to anyone, but somehow we ended up listening to a lady on this topic - "Can grief and happiness co exist".

She talked about her life, her brother, his accident and how it changed her life. She talked about how much people just judge everyone without knowing anything about the person. During the entire talk i was just nodding and nodding, she was talking exactly what i would be talking about probably if i were to give a talk. (And i said the same to her at the end of the talk 😀). She told some concept of people standing in the pool and we looking only at the faces of people not knowing the depth of pool and height of people. It was nice, she talks very well, and we went to her and discussed our app in the end, she liked it(Although she said, its very lovely, but i think she was only being nice 😀). She even asked if she can help to spread it on her instagram. It's so great when we just find these people accidentally who think alike us.

Anyway, That day before listening to her, you know that i could relate with the topic "Grief and happiness together".

It'll be an year soon. But i am not sad about it. Of course that little thing is always there with me, the thing, the thing which always gives me this feeling that maybe something is missing, but it also says that its alright, it also keeps me grounded and give me the sense of an emotional being, who we are. Of course somedays i am more emotional and my heart feels a little more heavier but its not sad. It knows the grief. I know the grief and i have accepted it and thats why i am not sad. It's a part of me and i dont dislike it.

Anyway, i know, i bored you with the same story again.. Cant help it.. 😋

Although these days due to my memory issues i think i am slowly forgetting her face too. I dont want to, but its just fading behind my eyes, i cannot seem to hold it there. I think i need to bring walnuts from kashmir 😀, or else i'll forget everything.

Me and dawrani planned for the kashmir, i thought when i'll return i'll bring with me a lot of walnuts, kashmiri teas and lot of other fruits, I'll fill as much as i can 😀. But we are not going now, He is preparing for Gmat now. But i am going home to meet nani. I feel true love for nani, i wish i could do something for her.

Meanwhile, Sweety told me about garvita sort of liking a boy and it seems like a complicated love situation 😀. I dint realize how time grew so fast and my darling sis has grown so much. But she is still too young for this sort of thing, and i dont know whats wrong with the teenagers, people seem to love the pain and the drama which comes with it, she used to hate boys and fight with everyone. I think its all the modern movies and media which fills our brain with these stories of love and separation and pain etc. While in actual it could be so different.

But she has very less friends, i wish i could be there and talk to her and guide her maybe. But i am so far... I'll take some present for her though.

Haven't talked to mukesh for years now. We were good friends, and we shared stories with each other first hand, but over the past 2 years, i think he forgot me. It was his birthday yeterday, i saw it on facebook today. I dont keep in touch with most of my friends, i almost never call them, and i never care about it if someone forgets me. But mukesh forgetting me kind of bugs me.

But i am calling him tomorrow. Or maybe i could just send him a birthday present and remind him of me 😀.

The curiosity is increasing, these days i keep thinking more about quantum, universe and people thinking of time as a mere dimension, einstien said that time is a dimension, but i think its a different thing, while in other dimensions we can move in different directions, in time we are only going forward, its probably a little different thing then the dimension. What is a "dimension" ? And what is time ?

I think someday i'll discover something...

Life is good.

I have taken up a challenge for Jogging. So waking up early tomorrow.

Good Night. ❤️

One more thing, forgot to tell you. I am becoming good at yogurt making these days. I am making it everyday... 😀

MzBentley 's Dear Diary