Dear Diary,

Somedays we have bad days at work 😀.

Yesterday night was not good. The day actually went well, but then i just embarrassed myself in the meeting. The pointer explanation. My God!!!

I just feel so much under pressure in these meetings.

And then i was sooo sad last night.

The problem is directly with me, who i am, and not just the work. Like the criticism is about my attitude towards this, i didn't think of monitoring for visual matrix.

It's not like i am not working, i am working very hard for last few days, but my way of doing things is not very likeable or reliable to them (Or maybe in general).

I think the problem is that i keep talking about it so much, i am taking wrong things seriously and right things lightly. I shouldn't take this criticism too seriously, I came here to learn, so i should just improve what i can and leave the rest.

Also Jyoti said, that kya karna he ye seekh ke. It's ok even if i didn't learn this in the end, i would still be able to work how i work, it may not be the best but who says i have to be the best. Even the people there aren't the best, i know.

Also, i keep telling myself that life is an experience, i should just see this as experience, and improve myself if i can but not be sad about it.

The more i think, more frustrated i am going to be. I shouldn't think so much and just take work like work. If not them, I'll find another work. But in the meantime, I'll try to give my best and learn as much as i can.

Peace

--panda--

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