Dear Diary,

Yesterday was a good day, I impressed a senior by doing a root cause analysis of an issue and doing debugging also. I could do it as my roommate GK helped me. She is doing development work since around 6 months.

Today I woke up sad. Again, thinking that I will always remain unhappy from within. I told GK that I might go on a date with AM. She is best friends with my ex, which makes it awkward for me, as I know he tells her everything. She praises my ex a lot sometimes. I don't say anything. She might have to leave town too for her exams. But then she will be away for a lot of time. I will be alone. This was not planned.

Yesterday, our colleague next door, tried to hit on me. He was good friends with GK before so she seemed disappointed by his attitude. She didn't expect him to behave so, and lastly said to me, after seeing me, even the good guys's intention gets spoiled.

Even though I get so many proposals, I am starting to believe I will never be in a happy relationship. I will never get someone genuine and nice. There are good guys out there, but I will end up choosing the wrong ones. It makes me sad.

I will wait till 1st week of March. If we don't meet somehow then also, I will delete him from my life. Just few more days of torture. He is the 2nd person in my life I felt immense hatred for.

10:30pm : I wish I could be happier.

Lynn's Dear Diary