's Dear Diary

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September 19, 2019
Dear Diary, Manon came over out if the blue the other day n hung out for a couple hours. We got along like two friends do. We talked about a few things n we agreed on a few things. Then i send him a casual text. Thwn another one. He was ignoring me a
Sep 19
September 18, 2019
Dear Diary, when I finally decided to tell Manon goodbye for good. That's when he decides it's time to come hang out with me. It was a little tense at first but then loosened up. I love him n I love being with him. It does make me really sad when he
Sep 18
September 15, 2019
Dear Diary, I actually said goodbye to Manon tonight n I meant it. I have to let go. I'm only hurting myself. It hurts like hell. I was hanging on to any thread. But it's been so many years it's so hard to accept it. All I'm doing is pushing him fart
Sep 16
September 15, 2019
Dear Diary, and again I found an excuse to text Manon. A few times n it's not even noon yet. Of course no reply. N this is when I start getting angry. N if I let myself I can build myself up onto a total psycho bitch stage. I dont understand it. Cuz
Sep 15
September 14, 2019
Dear Diary, sometimes I just go nuts with Manon n his new girlfriend only a block away. I want to go up there n spy n maybe see him. I honestly hope I'll see them arguing. It really doesnt matter though. It only leaves me feeling even more lonely tha
Sep 15
September 14, 2019
Dear Diary, after friends leave n u know no more will b coming by is when the loneliness starts creeping in. It's when I want to text Manon. And I usually do. But i have to stop cuz it's just setting me up to get hurt. He ignores me, isnt even a frie
Sep 15
September 12, 2019
Dear Diary, started seeing this guy a little while ago n it turns out he was just playing me. It took alot for me to trust someone again after Manon left me like he did. Now this guy is just a fucking dog. Are there any good men left in the world or
Sep 12
September 09, 2019
Dear Diary, I got my moms death certificate today. Makes it seem much more real. We had our differences but I loved my mom very much. Some of my friends dont understand because she wasnt always the nicest. But she raised 5 kids alone so I think she d
Sep 10
September 07, 2019
Dear Diary, one of the hardest things for me to deal with since Manon left me is that there is no reason for doing anything. When he was here I did things because of him, around him n for him. Now I dont care.
Sep 07
September 06, 2019
Dear Diary, another night barely any sleep. I used to wake up n cry missing my cat of 15 years who passed away. Then I would wake up n cry because my boyfriend of almost 20 years left me. Just when I think I will b able to sleep night n have a good m
Sep 06
September 06, 2019
Dear Diary, am feeling extremely empty n lonely. I've lost alot. It's not just losing a boyfriend/friend of all these years. It's the unspoken plans. The knowledge that ass hole as he could b he would b there at the end of the day. Not even thinking
Sep 06
September 05, 2019
Dear Diary, I have tried to get him to answer a message or a phone. I don't know why I do this to myself. Cuz now I sit here crying. I cant stand when he ignores me. It drives me nuts then I do stupid shit which just makes him ignore me more. It's a
Sep 05
September 05, 2019
Dear Diary, I wrote massive texts to my x last night. None of them mean or loving. Still trying to hold onto that friendship I thought we had for the past 20 years.
Sep 05
September 04, 2019
Dear Diary, things r still a mess as far as the will goes. All I want is a little piece of my mom to hold dear. But my niece has all of her things n I have no idea why. I think she is the one that got everything all screwed up.  I have got to get ov
Sep 04
September 01, 2019
Dear Diary, I always thought things would get easier as we got older. When in all actuality it gets harder. My life is always such a mess.
Sep 01
July 08, 2019
Dear Diary, just got back from Orlando or jays house and as soon i got home i went to Fun depot im sooooo TIRED😣 im in hanna's room laying down i dont want to sleep inside of my room because taylor and brooklyn are not here😔 i hate changes when i w
Jul 08
July 06, 2019
1. Taylor is so mean and rude i asked her to turn down her phone and she said no and it was 12:00 she hade hanna cry by telling her to just stop she is being annoying she was talking to me also i was talking to hanna and laffing and she took off her
Jul 06
August 18, 2019
Dear Diary, It's my first time writing you from here. I still have to pretend you are Shay or else I can't write you. So here goes my first letter to Shay. Shay I am just a girl looking for Atlantis while trying to get to Jupiter, but you see I'm onl
Aug 18
August 21, 2019
Dear Diary, Sa dami Ng manloloko ngayon masuwerte ka Ng makakita ng matinong business partner.
Aug 21
August 19, 2019
Dear Diary, August 19 Monday na naman, medyo puyat after watching movie "Through Night and Day" pero worth to watch, preparing for the report at magiging subrang busy na naman ngayong week na'to. Perogaya nga Ng Sabi ko s asarili ko.." Lakas
Aug 18
July 06, 2019
Dear Diary, I don't want this life anymore.  (Non suicidal tendency)
Jul 07
July 06, 2019
Dear Diary, I'm awake. I'm awake In Company of whom I call Satan. He hasn't the slightest idea that his callus behavior is triggering the thought process of speculation. Uggghhh get me out of here.
Jul 06
July 03, 2019
Dear Diary, Screaming like a child does, off the top of your lungs helps in stressful and frustrated situations. Try it sometime. It beets bottling it all up and not knowing what will happen when you finally have had enough..
Jul 03
July 02, 2019
Dear Diary, Tolerating behavior that is hurtful is paralyzing my ambitions. Being able to pursue what is important to me has become an obstacle. Obstacles that are not being met head on with the courage and resilience I am very well capable of. Why
Jul 02
June 30, 2019
Hello, Hola, Cíao! Time is valuable and can never be given back. It's important for me to express my gratitude in saying, "Gracias for taking an interest in reading my thoughts. It's genuinely appreciated." Bless!
Jun 30