Dear Diary,

Ive been thinking about all the things that i want to achieve for myself, ive been dreaming for a better future all this time. Currently, i am listening to this song, which i hope the majority of you know from new radicals, i personally am familiar with Mandy Moore's version. Although this is a love song, I can totally relate to the message which indicates a lot of uncertainty, but the melody makes it seem so lighthearted making me feel better a bit.

By this Monday i will be moving out- i know ive said in the past entries that i will be moving out at the time, but plans got delayed for some reason, but i dont really blame the timing. All the hours got me to tae my time and really think this through. The things to gain and lose, as well as the growth that is supposed to be waiting for me on the other side. I felt anxious a few nights ago, but i came to the conclusion that if i never try, then ill never know, and if i never know, theres never going to be chances or opportunities that could possibly do me better.

i am a sucker for comfort. The least thing i like is sudden change as i easily get used to routine. Probably when i was in high school unexpected things can still be switched up for fun, but i guess things are just more different now. I imagine comparing the high school me to the me right now, and i acknowledge a lot of things have changed in me. Perspectives, and experiences - not sure if they really made me a better sport in life though. Going to college is definitely going to be a new twist, and work, too. I wonder whats in store for me. Ironically enough, im not really that much excited. Most probably its because i refuse to put a lot of expectations and fail myself eventually.

Only my mom and relatives from the house i will be staying at knows that i am bound to travel and settle by monday. I cant seem to get the courage to announce to everyone here, with my cousins and others that i actually have decided already.

Nishtha's Dear Diary