April 16, 2026

i hate that im just like my dad. 

it makes me think of how he must hate himself . i say this because im always getting told im like him not just by my attitude or facial expression or laugh or even how we speak meaning slang or whatever

we are the same with everything so whenever i think of this stuff i wonder and just remind myself the way he hates me so much must be the hatred he has for himself. but what can i do? at the end of the day

I Am my Fathers Daughter.

i just wish i was HIS daughter and not his own self reflection

i have always wanted to be me but now as im getting older im realizing im living his life to suffer his consequences and have the life that would hopefully make him like me. this isn’t to disrespect my father

by means

i have a dad but never a father

i’ve had a person be in my life while never being in my life . weird to say but it’s the truth

i have a Dad

but i would wish and rather have a Father

2 differently meanings

i love my Dad

I miss my Father

i will always try to respect my dad but why respect someone that chooses to not respect me .

yes yes yes give adults respect or your parents but to me Respect is Given to thoses who are Respectful

and i stand by that. one day Finally i will move on in my life and try and be a bigger and better person not only to not end up like my dad but to be better. He’s a Good dad but i need to be better for Me and not his supposed “Twin” “Daughter”

i just wish my dad didn’t have his self hatred that reflects to me . he will never understand how it makes me feel but that’s because i would never open up to him about it knowing the consequences. the consequences of just starting another argument or it getting pushed to the side like always or talked about later and still never solving the problem. im immune to it by now , i know all his tricks. so i’ll forever have my self hating attitude but not only to myself but others and slowly but slowly mess everything up for myself by being a cheater and manipulating person always with attitude and being mad.

it’s okay though i’ve tried hard to understand i never understand but at least i’ve made the effort unlike others, i have tried .

one day you will understand how i needed you as a Father

but your to much like me to understand 

but im just like you so

will both never understand each Other Dad.