April 15, 2026

Dear Diary,

My Quote for Todayyyy“Be gentle with yourself. It's your first time living too!”

Day after day I realize something without even noticing. God is always beside me, watching over me. I used to pray for this person every single day, asking God that someday we would be together, and since day one I wanted it. When we finally admitted our feelings, I felt my growth pause, and I kept praying, “God, if we’re not meant for each other, give me a sign.” She gave me signs every day, and I tried to behave when I felt them, but now I wonder if it was God separating us or if I was just blaming her for my mistakes.

I never blamed her for real. She is kind and good to me. Maybe I am the one at fault, maybe my ego needs to fade. God, I’m sorry for being a failure, for not keeping my promises, and for hurting someone. Maybe I’m just not ready for these things yet, but I’ll treasure this as part of my growth.

I have no reason to go back to her, maybe I’ll even become a priest if I don’t get rich but who knows! But one thing is clear that when I see signs every day, and I will no longer ignore them. I will take the opportunities, and I remind myself not to be afraid. if I feel something I need to do or say, I should do it truthfully.

Leo, fix yourself. You’ve made mistakes. Don’t you fear God? Sometimes you act like a weed that refuses to die, but maybe that’s why you’re still here because you still have lessons to learn.

– Leo