March 13, 2026

Dear Diary,

This is my first entry, and I was just needing to let it out here because I feel like no one truly understand me. Im not blaming them, even I dont even know myself at some point. The burden that I carry alone is heavy enough I dont even know how to let it out my chest. I feel like I almost give up in this life, the one that keeps me going is just my 1-year-old baby son. He's the only one that matters and I cant imagine leaving him alone in this world. Even the world around me feels empty or heavy, I have to brace it myself as this is the battle I have to fight alone. The truth is, Ive been stressing at work for 3 months Ive work on probation here. Its a good choice that I choose to resign and be a stay at home mother to give my full focus on my baby. I dont care if my husband has to work extra hours just to gain extra, as long as my mental health is at ease I think nothing else matters. Yea you could say Im selfish but isnt the mother is the heart of the home? Till then, I need to distract myself as this tears already welling up.