January 21, 2026

Over my entire life, this has happened only a few times. In the first dream, she kissed me, but I resisted. In the second, we were having breakfast together. In the third, I hugged her. Today was the fourth. In it, we were lying in my bed, talking about something. At one moment our faces ended up very close, and she slowly kissed me. I kissed her back. That moment in the dream was a silent confession, because after that we behaved like a couple—as if we understood everything without words. And then we kissed again.

This dream was incredibly realistic… as if I had actually lived through that moment. I even feel embarrassed describing it. In the dream, I clearly felt the warmth of her breath and the softness of her lips. I still remember that sensation. And I still remember the feeling from the very first dream too—very clearly.

I have only fallen in love once in my life. And it was her. It has always been incredibly difficult for me to feel romantic interest in anyone. And then, at one moment… I think I fell in love at first sight. Completely without reason or any kind of foundation. I just did. Literally within the first week after meeting her, I already realised that something was wrong with me.

It’s been two and a half years now, and I still can’t let her go from my thoughts

The song I associate with her: Kelly Joyce–Vivre La Vie