22:33
Dear Diary,
I'm good, wanted to write from last month only but felt lazy as usual...
I might not deny that I had a good time or having a good time...but I felt several emotions during this period...I wanted to write about those but all those are gone...
I am married now...and I must say the after is much much better than the before...
I have seen a drastic change and obviously good change...and that is the reason I am writing that I am having good time... somedays I am happy, somedays I am fine and a very few times...I am sad...mind it not unhappy...just sad.
By God's grace, I got a loving family...they are trying their best to accept me in their lives...and vice versa...
But there are times I miss my home... there are times I feel that I am the daughter in law...
I miss my home...my home...I miss Rpr...my life there...I miss my parents...I miss my freedom... although I don't use to go anywhere...but that sense of freedom in mind...I miss my own space...my privacy...no questioning over anything...no matter where ever I will go that will always be my comfort place.
Sometimes, I think that how I used to fight with my mum for every little thing that wasn't done according to me...I used to voice out every likes and dislikes...my unapologetic opinion on everything...here I just little and nod for everything...for anything and everything... whether I agree with it or not... whether I like it or not...maybe that's what people say about marriage that you learn a lot of things...maybe that's how life changes... maybe that's called the adjustments you have to go through...
I miss my kind of cooking, I miss the food...my cooked food...how a graphic designer feels when they are not given the creative freedom...
But I choose to ignore these minute things as it is just a matter of time and choose to focus on all the good things and love I receive... and enjoy and stay happy...
Maybe the most important thing I learnt in this alliance from beginning till now is patience...😄... finally.
Okay!!!