Dear Diary,
Whatever happened today and at night, has literally shattered me...
This is not the kind of life partner I would have ever wanted...
He was always concerned about my earnings...but I assured him that...I will contribute...but yesterday again he was saying that again...I said I will equally contribute to all the expenses...then he said something else...
I want this marriage to happen for the sake of my parents reputation, all the money that has been invested... but I don't think so that I would ever be happy in this marriage...he is not the kind of person who would align with me...he is very self obsessed...not a compassionate person.
I also understood that life me kuch bhi problem aayega... instead of being supportive...he will be rebuking at me only.
I have always assured him that I earn okay kind of...but I will work hard and get a job too and equally responsible for the house expenses.
After that we are doing all the wedding expenses... instead he is expecting so much and look at the hypocrisy... saying that I don't want anything but he wants everything...
Expecting things...very materialistic... after doing all the expenses...not thinking someone else's pov...not compassionate enough to understand things happening in other people life...
I don't know if this marriage will happen or not right now but I definitely know that in both case things will be very difficult for us... for me... getting married to someone...jiska sath shaadi k just pehle itta drama hua...how would our hearts align...idk
Idk what will happen...
I will make up my mind for the worst also... I am very anxious right now...my body is shivering...
His family is little supportive but apart from family...he is the one I have to spend my life with...so idk...