November 18, 2025

Dear Diary,

12 baj gaye hain isliye it's 18th November but I am writing about 17th November...

It was a tough day very tough day...

Zindagi me aap sochte hoge na ki kya hi bura isse...usse bhi kuch bura ho sakta hai...

It's a difficult year for my brother... but today what happened is I can say is the worst thing that has happened in his Life... he is just 26... and seeing such situations in life which you wish to never happen. .. listening him crying... all we can do is to support him...be there for him emotionally...to tackle this tough time...

And plus it's my wedding in next 5 days from now...

We won't be able to celebrate also...sab tut gaye hain andar se...

But shaadi is also important...

Kal tak mujhe alag chizen kharab lag rahi thi...I was feeling disconnected...

But today all I did was prayers...

But the reaction from AB, after knowing that we won't be giving any stuffs during tilak ceremony made me think...

Again I am at same question...did I rushed in taking the biggest decision of my life... kya sahi insaan choose kiya hai maine ya nahi...

Literally this reaction has made me think... hamesha bolna ki kuch nahi chahiye but sab kuch chahiye usko...

I am very talkative person...but with him I am mostly silent... kyunki mujhe wo safe space feel hi nahi hua...mai chup hi rehti hu... jyadatar...

Pata nahi...abhi jo tilak k saanam ka incident hua... uske baad mai shayad aur disconnect ho jaun ussee...