Dear Diary, sometimes I feel lost...like I'm in all of this by myself, sometimes I feel like nobody loves me. I feel like my mom hates me plus my dad is hardly in my live, I feel left out in my friend group. When my mom takes away my phone I get lost in my thoughts because I use my phone as a distraction, so I don't get drowned by my thoughts, even when I do have my phone I zone out sometimes wondering if all of this is real, if I'm really here, sometimes I get suicidal thoughts but then I think about how my mom would feel especially since I'm her only kid. I think about the future, not being able to carry on my mother's legacy but I'm so tired of everything, I feel like to end it.