Dear Diary,
I still wish you were a textual YouTube. Be ready for anything I'm going to write on you. Plain facts. Rest all is dead for now. Bear with it. It'll make some sense, being plain and true. You might laugh, you might think this guy is a freak. Laugh. Think. Do whatever you want.
Though I still wish people were more developed by now (elevators/planes/hospitals, how comfortable are you?). I wish they understood the importance of a textual sharing platform instead of giving the videos so many views on YouTube, etc.
Who am I ? An Asian man. 37 year old. Never touched a girl. No smoking or drinking ever. I always ate vegetarian. I work in an IT company, as they call it. Now that my beard is showing up a few white hair I recall that a decade ago, people in my industry told me I'll go crazy if I continue working without distractions. I don't even spend money, not much on myself. (I used to) Be happy and healthy just like that. When I was in my puberty I had this childish oath to shave my pubic hair only when I show it to the first girl I make out with. This too is a joke now.
I gave up good opportunities in my life, often. Both with respect to job and getting a girl. Ego is one word that might explain the reason. Now I would be lucky to feed a woman living in the slums and thus get her attention. You'll understand the mind-body issues I'm talking about in days to come.
I didn't do many things actually, which you'll expect me to have done by now. There is a Hollywood movie called Titanic. I still haven't watched it.
I think my emotions are not fully developed. Or maybe I'm asexual. Or maybe only males who have a very strong uncontrollable urge get laid. I THINK I'm developing that urge now, at 37, to do such things in public. Maybe not.
The good thing? I am lucky to be born in my family and to be raised such. This is why I wish to pay back. At least a woman who will think about the well-being of my family. And kids too?
I'll come to my family in days to come. I mean I'll tell about them later.
I'll keep writing..hoping for things to get better in the future..